Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I still can't believe i'm leaving next week.

This second trip back here has been so weird. I've been acting weird and as such, people around me has been acting weird. And i'm still trying to figure out why - why i've been behaving like this anyway.

It feels like the time here has been so short even though it's only a week shorter than my first time here.

I still remember how it was like when i first got here: excited to be here, scared to be all alone, scared at all the 'strange' americans, touched by the angels, uber happy over the snow and woah.. many many more. What an emotional medley it was.

The trip this time, on the contrary, have been filled with sensitivity, unspoken tension, undisclosed emotions and more often than not, things were a blur. ( most probably because we couldn't stay sober for too long. hahaha. )

Hell, i even blog differently now.

But despite these never-ending issues, i am still really glad i made the choice to come back. And i do love working in the EDR. The only thing that is really bugging me is some comments my previously well-respected co-workers. But you know, shit happens. The main thing is to survive it, i think.

The most amazing experience, though, is to meet the 4 incredible friends of mine, most of which coming from different countries. In no or hardly ( JOKE ) any order of preference, Kelsey, Karolina, Agata and Matej are 4 really cool people from 3 really separate countries.

Kelsey's a real cool chick from Minnetonka, Minnesota - the only American in this 'circle of trust'. haha.. I always call her a nerd because of her way over average GPA and her ability to memorize weird stuffs like the serial numbers to the different stocks in the store. She is, however, way better than what i'm describing her as right now. She's freakishly tall, has a baby face ( or so I say ), really funny, really crazy and in some ways, really beautiful as well. Although she doesn't think so, Kelsey knows exactly what she wants in life, sticks to all her decisions to the very end and chooses to filter out most of the unhappy stuff she knows by pretending she doesn't know. All in all, she's like at least 10 times more than what is described right here.

Karolina's this hot chica from Poland. She's really similar to Kelsey in terms of mentality, thoughts and reactions. She loves working overtime, loves to get drunk except she doesn't because i always snatch the attention away before she is able to and she's a real mature person who makes talking to really easy. She can get wild and crazy when she partys but she never loses herself. I only got to know Karolina better on this trip and maybe a few days before i last left and i'm really glad we had the chance to get better accquainted.

Agata's this black hair beauty from Poland as well. She's Karolina's best friend and they study, live and came here together. Agata's real cool to be with as well except she keeps way too much stuff to herself. I really hope that she'll be able to open up to anyone of us one day. Her work here so far hasn't been exactly smooth sailing because of arrangements with co-workers but she's strong in the sense that she still does her best no matter what. I admire Agata's strength and courage and i really think she has the potential to enter the modelling / fashion industry.

Matej's the only BOY in the group. He's from Slovenia and is REALLY tall. Despite his tall, not bad looking features, he yelps like a girl. haha... Kelsey, himself and me were hiking at Mallard lake once when he saw this deer ( which was apparantly smaller than the last deer he saw at the same hike a couple of weeks earlier ) and yelped really weirdly. Weirdly for him, funnily for us. I have to say, when it comes to girls, Matej's a typical guy. However, he is a good brother as well. He listens, he jokes, he helps out. Without him, the last time i left would be worst than what it was. And even though i've been weird here, Matej never fails to get drunk with me and start pushing everyone around. In fact, he even made a tree fall when we were hiking at DeLacey Creek! hahaha.. Even though i always say i will kill him one day ( 50% of a joke is real, btw. ), I'm really glad i met Matej and had the opportunity to work with him.

Of course, this is not the only people i know/met. The other foreigners are really cool hang out people as well. We have the taiwanese girls ( lots and lots and lots ot them! ), one from turkey, one from slovakia and another from china. We don hang out exceptionally much but we visit each other pretty often and I have to say, my initial impression of them have really changed ALOT this time. In the good way, that is.

I'm really bummed out about leaving so soon. And what sucks the most is the fact that there's a huge ass chance that we won't get to see each other ever again. Why is the world so big? what is singapore's problem? Every ticket out and in of here's so freaking expensive.

I don wanna leave. Really don't wanna.
The upcoming week's gonna be so painful.

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