Monday, April 30, 2007

Sound the bugle now,
play it just for me.
As the seasons change,
remember how I used to be.

Now I can't go on.
I can't even start.
I've got nothing left just an empty heart.

I'm a soldier.
wounded so I MUST give up the fight.
There's nothing more for me,
lead me away...
Or leave me lying here.

Sound the bugle now,
tell them I don't care.
There's not a road I know,
that leads to anywhere.

Without a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark.

Lay right down,
decide not to go on.
Then from up high,
somewhere in the distance..

There's a voice that calls,
remember who your are!

If you lose yourself,
your courage soon will follow.

So be strong tonight,
remember who you are.

You're a soldier now,
fighting in a battle.
To be free once more..
Ya that's worth fighting for !

Saturday, April 28, 2007

concentrate concentrate concentrate!
focus focus focus!


Friday, April 27, 2007

I pace the school with deep regrets for not working hard this sem.
Or will i ever?

What does my future have installed for me?
Having to go through this ordeal once more with no familiar faces around?

Breathe! Breathe!

The threat is real now.

Breathe breathe!

It's a miracle if i can even pass.

Breatheeee BREEAATTHHEE!!!!!

oh bother.
Come What May.

All the best to the rest of you who still have a chance.
Learn from my mistakes.
start studying TODAY.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Disgraceful, crazy, absent minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.

I don wanna be sober.
Exam's TOMORROW and i'm only halfway done.
There's something cursed about me this sem.
Something even more cursed.

On the verge of giving up.
Just one more push and i will just drop it off.
But what pride will i feel?
When everyoneelse collects their results, i'll be thinking.. " hmm...what if i took the papers? "

shu juan asked me to stop thinking.
At the same time, she commented that it's impossible for me to stop thinking.

That's the whole problem issnt it?

Oh, let me be retarded pls.

Monday, April 23, 2007

每一次kiss you Goodbye

Sunday, April 22, 2007

This exam's a goner.
Everything's so tough and i have another 2 weeks to go.
Both paper of which i haven't studied.

Someone pray many many for me?

Friday, April 20, 2007

i'll tell you what i want, what i really really want.

Thursday, April 19, 2007


see you in the same lect hall next sem.

oh ya, no cancer.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Uni is supposed to be fun!

Am i / we to go through this every sem?

The anticipation, the fear. It's killing me.
i should take jas's advice and just study, not think so much.
But my mind's like a bullet train. Worst yet, an auto-pilot bullet train.

i can't wait for the exams to end.
I hope the 3 mnths of holiday can make up for everything.
For all the lost time.

but hey.. i'm not supposed to hope. =S

Thursday, April 12, 2007

have you ever felt like ur head's an empty space?
Nothing but air.
Despite putting information inside, nothing seems to go in place.

Day by day, i'm starting to live like i have no control of my life. Time fly by me without my realisation. I stare out everyday, my eyes not fixed on anything. most of the time.

Even if i do, it's at my own temptation and not what i have to do.

Who am i kidding?
Uni is not for me.
Why did i try to be such a hero?
Why did i try on this path, knowing i'm not meant for it?

I feel the stress rising, far beyond what i can handle.
But at the same time, i feel guilty and unworthy of this stress. For i haven't been putting in my heart and soul at studying.
Whose fault is it but mine?

My focus's not on my education right now, but other forces stronger and closer to me.

The walls are yelling out at me.
They're sneering, they're laughing.
Yes, i know..
I don't belong here.

Saturday, April 07, 2007

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.
People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be.

We fight hardest for things we most believe in.
Impossible is nothing.

Monday, April 02, 2007

I'm immobilised.
Both virtually and physically.

The mockary of life.
All along i've yearned the life of a king. And that was what i experience the past couple of days. All i had to do was wake up, eat, zzz. Wake up, eat, zzz.

It's too easy getting used to this kinda life. The comfort of shaking ur legs while others clean ur dirt for you. Sounds enticing doesn't it?

Well, not really.

Such previledges only comes when you're really weak or deemed useless to do anything. And even though it rocks caring about nothing except when your next meal is, the accumulated fats you know u have to rid in time to come and the sense of uselessness eats you.

So test results will be out only in 2 weeks time. In b/w which, i still have to find the motivation to mug for the exams. Do badly, i will.

Have you ever been stuck in a paradox of evil and good. Of doing what you want and what others want? Or in a more nobel sense of it all, being selfish or selfless.

What is right, what is wrong? What if whatever you think is right is actually wrong? What if everything you say is wrong is actually right?

Let ur guard down a lil, and you'll soon find urself halfway down the pit. What's worst.. the same old pit.

Once again, " what next? " comes.

The mockary of life, ladies and gentlemen.
The mockary of life.

i don't mind if you don't mind.
Coz i don't shine if you don't shine.
Before you go,
can you read my mind?

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds sad,
it's just that I'm worried,
so worried.
That you'll let me down.