Sunday, September 30, 2007


Saturday, September 29, 2007


The exam heat is on.
Or rather, mid terms.. although i can't really remember if i have any papers coming up.
i'm trying very hard to catch up this sem.
Especially if you compare to the last.. but my stress level doesn't seem to subside.

I have no bloody idea how this week swam by so fast and i hardly did any revisions.

It feels like everyone's shaking their heads at me..
" tsk tsk tsk.. yvonne ah yvonne. Stop slacking. Follow us. We're studying. "

Yes, i'm guilty.

Have i mentioned how much i hate uni?
I really hate it very much.
Sometimes, i wonder how all our teachers from seconday to jc always say that uni is fun.
Many actually say that those were the best days of their lives.


i'll say it once more..
I hate uni.

Those who feels the same, say aye!

Thursday, September 20, 2007


It's funny how so many people tag my blog when i don't post but no one does so when i do.

So now's a test to see who's reading...


pls rsvp asap.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

would you know how i feel?
Would you all know how i fucking feel?!

Monday, September 17, 2007


It's finally bye-bye career foundations. 3 hours of unbearable dos and donts of working in the business industry. It's definitely THE subject that makes me regret coming business the most.

Having not gone home for 3 weeks, i was welcomed home by a, " eh..who are you? Can you still remember the way home? "

stupid brothers. :)

I hate alvin's Nintendo DS. Everytime i head for home, i spend hours convincing myself to study. But all this will be put to waste with just a waive of his DS..just so he can feel good for studying while i waste my weekend away.

Distractions are a test to one's self-discipline. WHERE ARE MINE?!?!

I loved you.
Grey sweat pants.
No make up,
so perfect.

Sunday, September 09, 2007


I am so glad i bought mika's album. At times when i'm bored ( which should not be happening), waiting for time to pass ( which still should not be happening ), i listen to mika's tracks or log on to youtube and re-watch those videos that introduced me to him. damn funny. And! He made dnd video look good too..

Anyway, Dnd's tonight. But the atmosphere isn't really there. Everyone's home. Hardly anyone here is going. Come to think of it, hardly anyone IS going.. 'cept for the usual few. Like how the girls put it, everyone's " JUST SIANZ " now..

So I smiled and tried to mean it,

To let myself let go.

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man.
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in.
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart.
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in.
To the world you thought you lived in

Thursday, September 06, 2007

5th Sept.

The new HAS system has brought about much politics in hall. Hall against hall, block against block, one clique against another. These politics never seems to cease and i wonder why. Don't we all belong as one? Or have the culture eroded to an extent that no one has control over it anymore?

The differences in everyone's character is clear. But does that really mean that everything has to be the way it is? Isn't there compromise in this world? Or are we all filled with the want to excel, to stand out among the crowd? Why is there this silent competition?

To be completely unbiased, i blame the HAS system. I blame man's selfish nature.

Everyone seems selfish increasingly.

Only students and already bugged by this. I really shudder to think what is in for us when we enter the working world.

Time stood still for you,
Forever at 15.
This little place called heaven,
is where you'll always be.

STILL and forever will be... much loved by many.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007


Presentations, presentations, presentations!

I feel drowned in a world which requires us to talk, to convince, to persuade, to impress. I can't see myself, a couple of years later, standing in front of a panel of bosses trying to bring to them an idea that sounds completely nonsensical even to myself.

When i walk down the tutorial rooms, i see smartly dressed people everywhere. All ready to convince. All ready to fight. Why do i not have wills like them? They seem so sure of where they want to go, what they want to do with their life. What do i want from mine?

I can't see myself standing with such poise, such elegance, trying to carry off the 'standard business woman' look - capable, intelligent, smart. I am just not this.

Tell me why, again, am i here? What the hell am i doing in business? Who am i trying to kid? Why did i say no to something i wanted?

Only 5 weeks into school and i can already feel the pressures of exams. Have i always been like this all along? A nervous wreck who can never break away from the fears of being a failure once more.

The pressure is building up day by day. I want a rebirth. I want to set things right.

But how do i go about doing it?

Have i made another wrong move? I should stop looking back and regretting my steps and learn how to pick up the pieces instead. I should smile and take things in my stride. I should laugh at the face of presentations, seeing how much we've been drilled in itBut things are so often easier said than done. Whenever i stand in front of a crowd, i get tongue tied.

My mind's so filled with, " had i not done this ; had i not done that ; had i chose this ; had i chose that."

Presentations, presentations, presentations. I just hate them presentations.

And i don't want the world to see me,
Coz i don think that they'ld understand.