Welcome 2017. Since the start of the year (which hasnt been that long really) i've been having a pull to start blogging again. Well really it's just to pen down these random thoughts in my head somewhere again but i learnt tt i've become one of those who have grown weary of writing and somehow creating a new space seem tedious, or foreign in fact.
So.. i'm back! Albeit randomly, as i have been the past couple of years. But apart from all the angst and fears and insecurities we/i/man fight with daily, i hope i can start capturing some positive vibes that hit occassionally.
First up! Independence.
Lately i've been really busy with all the act 一个 grown up stuff. Looking around at cars, trying to (and haitusing [spell?]) on designing the new place, trying to find a course to learn new things etc.
And all these plans have been as messy as i've always been but yesterday i had a gathering with some of the more senior colleagues... and they made me feel like i've made a wrong choice with the house.
Because..... it's not a money making option as a singaporean.
But while i agree that waiting till i'm 35 to get a hdb is a more economical choice, i am not reallly keen on waiting till i'm 40 to be able to get my first 2 rm unit. Despite tt, i have unintentionally been bogged down by the negativity for a bit when SUDDENLY (think The Beatles/Mr Bean The Movie) i had an empipany. That i should shift my focus from ---- how i cannot make money to how to make the best out of it. Enjoy the space, the freedom (hopefully), the facilities.
I realize as i move through life, tt i've always been wanting the "best" of everything and i get frustrated when i feel shortchanged. I guess it's a very normal feeling. But i admire people who have the courage and realism to accept that life is not fair. And the way to happiness and self contentment is to make the best of what we have.
(All those episodes of Alone is definitely rubbing off on me.)
I have a big hurdle to jump across to get to that mountain of lepakness and i hope i get there some day. But for now, baby steps.
I am suddenly washed with thoughts of contentment and i want to hold on to this happy feeling for as long as i can.
With that, it's time to say a prayer, read some happy stories and go to bed with a hopeful smile on my face.
Peaceout world ✌