Thursday, April 27, 2017

hit by a sudden calm, peace and sa3 tuo1ness. willing this to stay!

HOORAH world! it's TGIF-1!

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

One of those when it rains, it pours days

Saturday, April 15, 2017

A new commandment i give to you....
Love one another as I have loved you.

A good Good Friday to all!

To more WEs and US instead of Is and YOUs. For a bigger and more gracious heart instead of a selfish guarded one.

Friday, February 24, 2017



Welcome 2017. Since the start of the year (which hasnt been that long really) i've been having a pull to start blogging again. Well really it's just to pen down these random thoughts in my head somewhere again but i learnt tt i've become one of those who have grown weary of writing and somehow creating a new space seem tedious, or foreign in fact.

So.. i'm back! Albeit randomly, as i have been the past couple of years. But apart from all the angst and fears and insecurities we/i/man fight with daily, i hope i can start capturing some positive vibes that hit occassionally.

First up! Independence.

Lately i've been really busy with all the act 一个 grown up stuff. Looking around at cars, trying to (and haitusing [spell?]) on designing the new place,  trying to find a course to learn new things etc.

And all these plans have been as messy as i've always been but yesterday i had a gathering with some of the more senior colleagues... and they made me feel like i've made a wrong choice with the house.

Because..... it's not a money making option as a singaporean.

But while i agree that waiting till i'm 35 to get a hdb is a more economical choice, i am not reallly keen on waiting till i'm 40 to be able to get my first 2 rm unit. Despite tt, i have unintentionally been bogged down by the negativity for a bit when SUDDENLY (think The Beatles/Mr Bean The Movie) i had an empipany. That i should shift my focus from ---- how i cannot make money to how to make the best out of it. Enjoy the space, the freedom (hopefully), the facilities.

I realize as i move through life, tt i've always been wanting the "best" of everything and i get frustrated when i feel shortchanged. I guess it's a very normal feeling. But i admire people who have the courage and realism to accept that life is not fair. And the way to happiness and self contentment is to make the best of what we have.

(All those episodes of Alone is definitely rubbing off on me.)

I have a big hurdle to jump across to get to that mountain of lepakness and i hope i get there some day. But for now, baby steps.

I am suddenly washed with thoughts of contentment and i want to hold on to this happy feeling for as long as i can.

With that, it's time to say a prayer, read some happy stories and go to bed with a hopeful smile on my face.

Peaceout world ✌

Monday, June 27, 2016

Can god love me this much?

I hope there's no catch to this. Hopeful final preserverance

Saturday, June 18, 2016

I feel silenced.

On one hand, thankful that i've cleared all the  pscs. But then i'm scared because i dont feel i've made the mark to qualify going for a validation check.

But no one is listening to me.

What if i don't make it this round.

Am i going to be able to pick myself up?

I feel like i'm standing at the gallows with my hands tied.

Gonna need a miracle for this.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Jesus help me, and never forsake me. amen.

Lord, in every need let me come to You with humble trust saying, "Jesus, help me."
In all my doubts, perplexities, and temptations, Jesus, help me.
In hours of loneliness, weariness, and trials, Jesus, help me.
In the failure of my plans and hopes; in disappointments, troubles, and sorrows, Jesus, help me.
When others fail me and Your grace alone can assist me, help me.
When I throw myself on Your tender love as a father and savior, Jesus, help me.
When my heart is cast down by failure at seeing no good come from my efforts, Jesus, help me.
When I feel impatient and my cross irritates me, Jesus, help me.
When I am ill and my head and hands cannot work and I am lonely, Jesus, help me.
Always, always, in spite of weakness, falls, and shortcomings of every kind, Jesus, help me and never forsake me.