Now I know that I'm being used.
But that's okay man coz I like the abuse.
I know she's playing with me,
But that's okay coz I've got no self-esteem!

This could have been a happy 3 years kinda post.

How much is loyalty worth?

favorfuckingtism!

I think no matter what, I won't be able to find back the feeling of drinking with the 4 of them.

Karolina, agata, matej, Kelsey. How I miss u all so.

This is home, truly.

You know how I've always hated going home early because the very thought of being in the same room for too many hours irks me?

She doesn't irritate me by being the noble mother. It's how she's slowly morphing into grandmother that bothers me. What's worse, she talks to me like I'm her fucking employee.

How she 'covers her backside' when she talks to me or how she sends me formal emails when we're all under the same roof. She even uses terms like dividends on me.

Money corrupts. They always do. And it's happening to her too. But wait, she was the one who taught me this little lesson wasn't she?

Just imagine having to feel like a dog at work only to feel the same way at home. And that is with the never ending guilt trips she sends me.

I can only wish for her to have eyes to finally see.

The Killers - Mr. Brightside

This is home, truly.

You know how I've always hated going home early because the very thought of being in the same room for too many hours irks me?

She doesn't irritate me by being the noble mother. It's how she's slowly morphing into grandmother that bothers me. What's worse, she talks to me like I'm her fucking employee.

How she 'covers her backside' when she talks to me or how she sends me formal emails when we're all under the same roof. She even uses terms like dividends on me.

Money corrupts. They always do. And it's happening to her too. But wait, she was the one who taught me this little lesson wasn't she?

Just imagine having to feel like a dog at work only to feel the same way at home. And that is with the never ending guilt trips she sends me.

I can only wish for her to have eyes to finally see.

My insecurity is acting up again. Sometimes I really hate it so much.

Thus saith the lord!

After seeing the picture Charlene showed at DINNER today, I have a sudden admiration for all nurses out there.

Guts.

(But I am still traumatized.)

The loneliest sound in the world is other people making love.

The point is I miss Mara very much and this is the best shot I've got.

sense of abandonment.

Ok. Maybee they do make some sense.

Put your act together.

Losing faith.

"In Poseidon, those who waited for help died eventually. Most of those who ACTed survived."

It's time to take some action.

And so it begins.






It always does.