Friday, November 28, 2008

Here's my daily routine:

5pm : rise and shine.
5pm - 7pm : OC
7pm - 10pm : Dinner + channel 8 dramas (i'm a fan.)
10pm - 8 or 9am: OC
9am - 5pm : zzz

No sun, no fresh air.

so you see, I gotta finish up with OC before some adverse effects hits me.

And for the record,
I don't like Ryan (Benjamin Mckenzie) and Seth (Adam Brody).
Seth is ok at times. But ryan, no.

Summer's cool though.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

I have one crazy, emotional family.

But i'm not going to wash our dirty linen in public.
So i'm just gonna end it with this:

I have one crazy, over-emotional family whom i still (maybe) love but can NEVER understand.
have you tried carlsberg?

Carlsberg's good.
Carlsberg's nice.
Carlsberg's smooooooth.

Simply wonderful.

Monday, November 24, 2008

It's 750am.

And i still don't wanna zzz..
Just because i cant stop watching OC.

Damn good.
Makes me wonder why I had to take so long to start watching it.

Too long.

Friday, November 21, 2008

i'm losing touch with reality.

I'm worrying about next sem's exams. :0

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Nearer, my god, to thee;
nearer to thee.

To celebrate the end of my exams,
I decided to watch titanic ( much thanks to jon for sending me the movie alongside many many nice ones ).

Chessy as it may sound, it's really really good.

It's scary to think of what might happen if we were on that ship instead.
Not everyone could be so fortunate as to die whilst in the arms of your other half.
Look at the thousands who got separated when they were struggling for their lives.

What could possibly be in their minds?

Where's my mama?
Where's my family?
Are they alive?

am i going to die?
How am i going to die?
Will i drown?
or hit my head on something?

Death.. is it a scary thing or not?


Its been a long time since i last stepped into church.
Mother's always saying how much we need a religion so there's like a belief system in times of need.
I agree with that.
But agreeing is one thing, doing is another.

Being a faithful servant requires alot of time and committment and while many people will disagree with me, I just can't seem the drive and motivation to put it as my priority.

Yes, it could be because of past encounters.
Yes, it could be because the religion had made me lose faith in it.
But.. it's still me.
Casting all reasons aside, I am still the main reason why i'm not there.


i guess i'm just not ready to put my religion as my top priority.
That doesn't mean i don't believe in god. I do, i guess. It's just a matter of prioritization.

Guess i should find the courage to step in there one more time.

Its high time i paid father a visit anyway.


yet in my dreams I'd be ,
nearer, my God, to thee.
nearer, my God, to thee;
nearer to thee.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

-clears throat-

yay, the exams have ended.

scratch that..



Tuesday, November 18, 2008

the LAST push.


Monday, November 17, 2008


see what overconfidence does to you?

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Now or never.

16, 16. 16 mins left..

Finally know how it feels like to go for exams without zzz or bath.

Stinky, sleepy, lousy.

Friday, November 14, 2008

if only i could sms god..

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

311 is like..

The world is round. But i see it as flat.
And i'm taught that it's round. But i still see it as flat.
Now i know that it's round. Still, i see it as flat.

2 days later, i have to tell people that it's round.
Even though i still see it as flat.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

i can do it.
i can do it.
i can do it.

yes, yvonne. yes you can.

I think i need stress management. There's like this tendency to view things out of proportion wrt exams. sigh. WHY?

I guess everyone's feeling it. But everyone's handling it well..which makes me feel quite ashamed of myself.

Yea, i know the past few entries were kinda.. High? With a negative aura. And i'm quite sure that there'll be worst ones the next few days.

Really really can't wait for exams to end. I've got like a whole list of what to do, where to go etc etc.. but i realized it's looks the same every sem! which boils down to show that i only talk.

So, this time, i planned my list realistically. Seeing the nua-pok jas and i are, i decided to fill my list with majoritily movies - hk movies, ang moh movies, so many many movies. can't wait!

ok, so my whole point for coming here at 550am is to thank angela for trying to help calm me down today. thanks girl. :)

oh, and alex gave me a big big surprise yesterday. He popped out of no where at pioneer mall just to hand me a present..

which is...


haha.. love it though. and appreciate the effort. :)

pls pray for me and all the GOOD ppl in uni, everyone..


Monday, November 10, 2008

I can't believe that i cannot finish studying and understanding and applying in time when i started studying from day 1.

This sem, i cannot blame my laziness.

Then, WHY?


Saturday, November 08, 2008

Let go and let god.
The prospects of my graduation seems dim.

And the stupidest of it all is that the cause of it points to... ELECTIVES.

It doesn't matter how hard you study.
If you're stupid, you're stupid.


Friday, November 07, 2008

Falling is easy;
Climbing is hard.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Was studying at Pioneer mall's macs when i noticed this plus-size woman that wasn't exactly the best looking person in the place.

She looked sad.
and lonely.

She was seating alone at the 'sofa seat' for hours, attempting to knit something. It apparantly failed. She then sat there for the remaining hours, staring blankly into space.

What could be on her mind?

It was 1am, nearing 2 and i had been there since 1130pm. We entered at almost the same time. Yet as we were trying hard to master how genes are related to cancer, she was just.. there. Staring, knitting, thinking, eating.

I dono if it's lucky or sad for her. Lucky because she doesn't have to be stuck in this stupid rat race ( i assume ) or sad because she has nobody to walk with her. What i know is.. i don't like how it felt when i look at her.

I don't even know how to describe it. She looks like she needs help. But why won't my legs move?

I remember 2 years ago when i was set into some 'thinking mode' and i was like her, sitting at some stairway, staring into space. 2 Singaporeans walked pass. They didn't realize my presence. About an hour later, 2 angmohs walked past. One was happily talking to the other.. u know, the usual scene. The other was intently listening to him. They walked pass me too, clearly heading for a swim. But while the 'talker' wanted to just walk off, the 'listener' suddenly seemed deep in thought. After about 10 steps, he shaked his head, stopped the 'talker' and walked back to me and said, " hi there. Are you ok? Do you need to talk? "

While i felt pretty uncomfortable about the idea and declined his nice gesture, I found myself smiling ( after so many hours ) and feeling much better. See the power of just showing some kinda concern? Even if you're just a passerby.

Sometimes, when people are troubled, they need to talk about it. However, there are times when people don't want to talk about it because all they need, is some kinda concern from their fellow homosapians.

So why oh why did i not walk over to talk to that lady?


Sunday, November 02, 2008

On turning 21..

There's so many people i wanna thank that i think 1 post is not enough.
But i'm not really good at sharing such stuffs.. so i'm gonna (TRY TO) keep it short.

Thank you all sooooo much for all the gifts and celebrations and wonderful memories!
Thank you all sooooo much for all the calls and smses and PMs and facebook and friendster comments.
Most importantly, thank you all so much for remembering!

Yes yes, and to put it bimbo-ly, i feel loved. really.

Timbre 2 days ago was really fun! Most credit should go to the crowd who was there with me. It's a really nice feeling, seating there, making so much noise and laughing at how stupid we used to be. Really hope when we graduate, we'ld be able to meet up like that again, this time, everyone probably dressed in their formal wears( yuck ) and still bitch about ppl we don't like. Heh..

You know, over the years, i've done stupid things like disappear from every gatherings and everyone's life only to reappear out of no where and the thing which i thank my blessing for is that even with stupid antics and mistakes like that, i have friends who are still able to accept me and spend good times like this with me.

Thank you, everyone. :)

Oh..and special special credit goes to pl for calling me alllll the way frm china! 4rmb per minute is not cheap because we spoke for 27mins! and she hasn't even received her pay yet! haha..

Thank you, thank you, everyone. you all made my day. :)

sidenote: I really really really really really wanna watch HSM3. REALLY. :(