i'm sorry my friends, i just need some alone time.

BEWARE!

I am having PMS.

So this is christmas.

I woke up this afternoon with the same feeling i had last yr - cold, confused, lazy to think.

The Straits Times reported yesterday that christmas is the hardest time for single woman. I initially took the article as nothing...until i left home. At the MRT station, i suddenly thought of mother. She has nobody to celebrate christmas with. She's so alone. So i messaged both my brothers to find out if they'll be home. None answered. As such, i went for dinner with 52-ers in a foul mood. i was so ready to leave early to spend time with mother.

I talked kok.
I only returned home at 6 am. After the entirely family, including fender no. 1, was soundly asleep. HAHAHA.

this was what happened:

A total of 14 of us feasted at 'simply paranakan' @ esplanade. It has been exactly 365 days since i last stepped into esplanade and i'm sad to say, except for the art pieces on the stretch of road from citylink to esplanade, everythingelse was pretty much the same.

After dinner, we walked to the merlion, stoned for like forever before they decided to catch a movie. I heard they were eyeing 'curse of the golden flower' or 'night at the museum'. Since i wasn't interested in the former, have watched the latter and told 3sa and hush that i'll show my face at christmas@orchard, I left the group and headed to the smelly, sticky and cramped up town ALONE.

After squeezing through the mob and surviving the snow spray attacks, i finally found the stage and the council with it. It was roughly 5 songs till the actual countdown. So i waited.... and waited.

5...4...3...2...1.
The crowd went amok.
So did the banglahs.

They gathered together and started swaying and pushing. I think the emcee was shocked herself. So many people nearly fell. So many threw their tantrums and started yelling. At least one girl got molested. And i witnessed it.

She was right in front of me. Cramped, surrounded and stuck in between banglahs. She looked 16-ish and was using both her hands to protect her front, leaving her back vulnerable. While everyone was getting sweaty and dirty, i heard her yell, " Stop touching my body! "

I guess since i was standing right next to her and am physically short, i was the only one who heard her yell. When i turned about to check out the commotion, i saw a plump blanglah ( i think this is the first time i see a fat banglah. ), who was pinned to her back, reaching out for her ass.

I grabbed his hands immediately and shouted up at him, " what are you trying to do?! "

The cheek of him to giggle, shrug in that psychotic, dirty manner and say, " i dono " whilst trying to squeeze outta my grip. Given his really greasy, DISGUSTING hand, he broke free and turned into the faster flowing opposite direction crowd.

I'm an ugly singaporean. I didn't give chase.

Instead, i asked the girl if she was alright. She cried and shaked her head in the neither-yes-nor-no way. I didn't know what else to say so after a few seconds of awkward silences, she rushed up into a pack of ppl. My guess is she was separated from her friends before she got stuck in b/w the banglahs so she ran back to em.

I bet she'll never show her face at anymore countdowns for a long long time.

Amist the scene, childish teenagers, roughly my age or maybe even older were spraying tons and tons of snow foam things. One guy who i'm sure was way older than me even had a bag full of em. I thought they were banned! Well, Singapore should. At least restrict e no. of cans sold. if they can ban harmless chewing gums, i don't see why they should allow such stuffs. To create the atmosphere? It wasn't helping. They just looked like a bunch of oversized kids.

Anyway, after the countdown, i headed back to meet 52-ers. We went ECP to...catch up with one another. Spent hours there. By the time we reached geylang for supper, it was roughly 4 am.

Dim sum for supper. So much for losing weight ; so much for saving money.

I shall go for a swim then.





I've been talking alot haven't i?
oh well...................................

Merry Christmas all!

Last christmas, i gave you my heart.
But the very next day,
you gave it away.

Happy 2006th birthday, Mr Christ.

Hell, i'm changing to blogger beta soon. muahaha.

First and foremost, Thanks for the shirt, kl. I like it. Saved me some new year money somemore. hahaha. :)

I think the older generations forgot what christmas is about. Year after year, i see everyone giving each other ang baos. This yr, it's worst. My mother and a family friend agreed not to exchange gifts coz it's a waste of money. In the end, they gave our family an unfried packet of cashew nuts. -_-'''

i'm not saying this because i want presents. Afterall, more often than not, my family always gets me things their ideal yvonne should be using. i'm an unfilial, unappreciative person. i know. haha..

it's ok to give my family nothing coz we're the grown-up cousins/nephews/niece/children but i'm talking about the joy the kids have on their faces when they receive wrapped up gifts and start ripping the wrappers apart. ( even more reason why we should never buy wrapping paper from 'Prints'.) Imagine how they'ld feel when they realise that the gifts they got are the things they want/like. Of course, this joy is now killed since everyone is placing a quota on how much our presents for the kids should be.
if i were a rich man..

Unfortunately, i'm not in the mood to do the gift-hunting this yr so alvin had to do it instead.

I guess parents sees christmas as a time to unnecessarily spend more money. Not entirely untrue but look at the bigger picture - although definitely the cause of headaches, gift hunting is fun. Especially when u're doing it with the right people. And it's not good to always give ang baos to kids on EVERY occassion or they'll grow up to be a money-minded, festives-means-nothing-but-money people.

Still, i must give credit to the adults for planning so many family gatherings this yr. I'm sorry i never make it for most of em. I do feel bad. :(

done with talking kok, lets talk abt today.

Today was a great day!
Went to PW and did some painting with hush. My mind was kinda off-focused but it was fun on the whole. After we finished, we went shopping for her family's gift. She's hilarious. Remind me again that she's a grown up alrdy. i always have the notion that she's still the lil girl who just stepped into gvss. hahaha...

ice-skating next! =)

check out Joe Satriani's crowd chant. Very nice.

Vindicated.
I am selfish.
I am wrong.
I am right.
I swear i'm right.
Swear i knew it all along.
And i am flawed.
But i am cleaning up so well.
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.

Oh great, it's christmas eve already..

Went out for supper with kl last night and i greatly embarassed myself:
1) Aimed for geylang but ended up at lau pa sat.
2) Forgot to bring money.

how man am i?

NUS's accountancy school closed down.
Told you NTU school of business and accountancy is better and more prestigious.

i'm not bragging.

And I think NUS accountancy's students are quite poor thing. If i'm not wrong, they gotta change course which means they have to retake everything.

hopefully i have no friends in thr.

Got the car tonight! anybody wants supper? :D

But fighting all the demons will take time..
it will take time.

In just 3 days, i spent over $10 just on transportation ALONE!
basket. Looks like adult life isn't that great afterall. :(

Went to watch Night at the museum with hush today. show's ok. Not the best, but watchable. It would have been better if not for the smelly apu-neh-neh beside us and the couple making out in front of us. haha... wonderful choice of show to make out btw.

hush's a good company. :)

Check out the relatively new band, Rascal Flatts. They have good songs in their album.

i'm zzzy. night all.

What hurts the most,
Was being so close.
And having so much to say.
And watching you walk away,
And never knowing,
What could have been.
And not seeing that loving you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.

In one season of friends,

Joey, Phoebe and Rachel felt tight coz they were not as rich as Monica, Chandler and Ross and they can't afford to do many expensive stuffs like them but had difficulty rejecting it coz they thought it was stupid to kill the spirit over a small cash flow issue.

I feel like joey, phoebe and rachel. :(

Anyway, the holiday's a good show.

P/s: blogger is discriminating against OLD blogger users.

P/s 2: i think there's something behind the fridge in my room.

Hello darkness my old friend.. i've come to talk with you again.

The rain has been eccentric. Behaving exactly like girls - tempremental. haha..
It's affecting all of my activities. My swims, my runs, my cycling... GONE. all i can do now is eat, zzz and eat and zzz even more. i really needed those exercises. for obvious reasons. Even driving seems less fun and more dangerous now thanks to the fallen trees and jams.

I'm a lil lazy to talk about the past couple of days but they're worth putting down.
so here's a couple of things to note:

1) Pulau ubin on friday was fun.
2) Changi jetty has changed so much it isn't that cool anymore. instead of the kampong, rustic loo, it looks like WTC with all the checks and stuff.
3) the last time i took the 'bumper boat' ride was in sec 2's atc.
4) we aimed for chek jawa but jj, whose roots were supposed to be from ubin lead us to the beach beside npcc campsite instead. (oh how we used to play muah chee there. yuck. )
5) ubin's mosquitoes are like commando mosquitoes and they attack in 3s.
6) we didn't manage to reach chek jawa.
7) fang hui met with a really bad accident.
8) photos will be up later.
9) met up with 4e1'03 on saturday.
10) suki sushi's buffet is SO MUCH more worth it than sakae sushi's buffet.
11) Wanted to go indochine - yay! :)
12) found out that suhaily ( class chairman ) was working in rouge - only accepts ladys who are > 21 and guys who are >25 ( beside acid bar @ sommerset ) that night.
13) reserved a chamber for all of us.
14) 9 ppl.
15) my 2nd time in rouge. first time was with dear kl and her mr policeman.
16) opened a bottle of vodka that costed $158.
17) rouge's band is like sooooo good. much better than indochine but still, i like indochine nonetheless.
18) rouge's music, when the band was resting was ALSO good.
19) chin hoong's first time drinking.
20) went to simpang bedok for supper.
21) woke up early for car wash on sunday.
22) car wash was cancelled due to bad weather.
23) pl, estelle and i went to pw to shop instead.
24) estelle bought 2 book, pl bought nothing and i bought a pair of beautiful LEVI's socks. :D
25) hong kong xiao chi has terrible food at unreasonable prices.
26) went home to slack for the rest of the day.
27) Chun how's birthday celebration yesterday.
28) went to visit chechire home - our beneficiary first.
29) some of them are quite friendly and some really makes me sad.
mtt once said.. " there's a difference b/w service learning and community service. In community service, u may leave sad. in service learning, u learn by serving. There's no need to feel sad. Just learn how to give. " let's practice service learning on lovebites.
30) went to visit poor ol' fang hui.
31) went to celebrate chun how's birthday @ brewerks @ clarke quay.
32) the bill totalled to $708!
33) went to his friend's friend's pub.
34) opened my 2nd bottle - chivas.
35) chun how got REALLY DRUNK.
36) i had his puke on my hands.
37) this is the most expensive birthday party i've been to. but i had fun. :)
38) since chun how reads this, i am unable to disclose how much i've spent. haha..
39) estelle and i are trying to rush through full house on youtube.
40) rain very hamsum meh?
41) i bet youtube will be forced to close one day
42) i'm really glad that exams are over and i embrace this holidays. the feeling of not needing to get up to study or stick to the stupid schedule.
43) school is starting. :(
44) nicholas sparks has a new book! - dear john.
45) i can't wait to get my hands on it.
46) it is so much easier to update this way.
47) it's getting cold.
48) i'm going to snuggle up on fh's bed. HAHA.
49) goodnight everyone.

poor jamie went to sispec. he'll be gone for 6 months. I'm gonna miss him especially when we have any other class gatherings. i miss him alrdy. 4e1'03 rocks. =)

Anyway, the past couple of days were really good i suppose. busy = good.

I saw michelle's friendster profile. Seeing how close the jnr canoeists are makes me really happy. i wish the ppl frm my batch are as close as em too..but just thinking back on how they were when i first saw them..seeing how shimin and qin wei were when they were at the trials, how michelle was when she first took T2, how they were there for us when our batch had that major hiccup..i can't help but smile really widely.

jealous, i am. but i'm happy too. they had better stay this way. :)


oh and folks,
if u're free on christmas day, go down to orchard for christmas@orchard for a collaborated celebration b/w FCBC, GVSC - who will be SINGING ( wahahah! ), giving our balloons etc. and many other ppl.


Aza aza fighting!

Oh dear, i just took 1 chinese song each from estelle and stebun. It's a sign. I'm getting cheena! :(

All thanks to stebun's self-compiled, 95% chinese song CD which he repeated FOUR TIMES on our journey to and fro pulau ubin.


我要离去　别再哭泣　不要伤心 请你相信我　要等待　我的爱　陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天　我们牵着手在草原 听鸟儿歌唱的声音　听我说声...　

我爱你

Child, are you happy?
I don't mean to pry.
But do you think of heaven?
Have you wanted to die?

i knew a couple got married at bedok reservoir in a bid to " fulfill PM Lee's dreams of conducting a marriage coupled with 2 dragon boats at the side. "

BUT,

i didn't know that THAT couple was ANGELA YONG. Yanni's ex-CT. haha..


Funnnnnny, funny.

went ubin today. blog more when i have the mood.
goodnight.

Never judge a book by it's cover.
Never EVER think you know someone because people lie.


under some unfair circumstances,
you'll be surprised to see that..

the good guys can become the bad guys too.

i'm glad you're alright.

Thanks shannon, kl and ms tan for coming down. :)


Cycled with kl and ah bee yest to bedok jetty. Staring at the choppy, vast, green sea, i wished i was canoeing. If only i owned a voyager, a racer or a dancer, i'ld go out on most days. I'ld stop myself right in the middle with no one in sight and scream..yell.

yell my hearts out! yell and yell and yell. Yell until i lose my voice. until i scare the hell outta every fish. Until there's nothing more to say. Then i'ld keep singing. Sing until nothing is left in my mind.

Until i reach a clean slate.

then i'll slowly paddle back. Drag my boat upashore. clean it, wax it. Get it all prepared for my next expedition.

I really miss canoeing.
The slicing of water, the fighting with waves, the gliding of boat, soaking up the sun, the exhaustion..everything.

If you're so powerful, pls,

bring me back there.

This time, alone.

Only a day of car wash and cycling and already i'm sprawed, at 2234 hrs on a fine saturday night, on e NEW L-SHAPED SOFA my family got DURING my exams ( note the sarcasm. ), too tired to drag myself up onto my proper bed.

well done.

blog more abt today tml.
goodnight.

CAR WASH FOR CHARITY!

To raise funds for lovebites, Hall X's annual charity event in Feb'07,

We are conducting car wash @ ECP - the car park beside macs.

Dates: sat (9-12-07 ) and next sun ( 17-12-07 )

Time: b/w 9 am - 3pm.

So do YOUR bid for charity today,

let us beautify your car.

=)

There's no place like home..or is there?

Finally home.
Leaving ntu with the intention of going home seems weird yesterday. Afterall, it's been one and a half month. Oh well, this day gotta come. I can't keep avoid coming back, can i?

Went for sakae sushi with kl and shannon yesterday. YUM! finally got my cha soba. =D i've been having so much cravings lately i feel like i'm pregnant. I'm lucky they always get satisfied. It's been a long yet, not so long time since i met kl and shannon. And shannon drove a MERCS thr!

barely a month after he passed his driving, he's alrdy manoeuvring a MERCS all over town..

..and despite having eight months passed, i'm STILL having problem convincing my mum to let me drive the MAZDA ard. -_-'

Anyway, we went to watch deja vu yesterday.
wonderful show! everyone should watch.
And i also realised i have the making of a good director.
wahaha... only kl and shannon understands what i'm saying. =)

pls don't rain..pls don't rain.
i wanna swim.
pls don't rain.
stupid d<-o<-g.

Fool.

A FOOL!

so bloody stupid.

Walked pass jam band room.
Slang, the freshie band was singing 'Only one'.

I was shocked that there are people here who knows the song.
Even more, i was shocked at how horrible their edition was.

so this is it.
A song I sing:

Broken this fragile thing now,
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces.
And I've thrown my words all around,
But I can't, I can't give you a reason.

I feel so broken up (so broken up),
And I give up (I give up).
I just want to tell you so you know.

HERE I GO!
scream my lungs out and try to get to you!
You are my only one!
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do,
You are my only, my only one!

Made my mistakes, let you down.
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long.
Ramed my whole life in the ground,
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone.

And something's breaking up (breaking up).
I feel like giving up (like giving up).
I won't walk out until you know.

HERE I GO!
scream my lungs out and try to get to you!
You are my only one!
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do.
You are my only my only one.

Here I go, so dishonestly,
Leave a note.
for you my only one.
And I know,
you can see right through me.
So let me go and you will find someone.

HERE I GO!
scream my lungs out and try to get to you!
You are my only one!
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you!

You are my only,
my only one!

my only oneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
my only one!
my only oneeeeeee.

you are my only, my only one.

Imagine Me & You US trailer

" you don't know,

you can never be sure,

but you take the plunge anyway.

Sure is for people who don't know love enough. "

Imagine Me And You



Imagine me and you.

A brilliant beyond brilliant show. For those who are mature enough and have a heart open enough to accept certain truth of life.

To follow the heart.
That's what the show emphasizes.
In life, some things do not turn out the way it is supposed to be or how the society deems.

ACCEPT IT.

sometimes,
you cant.fight.fate.

in times like this, or maybe a little less extreme, shut ur eyes, clear urself from the surrounding, from the world and ask yourself..

" what does my heart say? "

Thereafter, trust ur heart. follow it.

if only there ever is someone as strong, sensible and brave as rach and as thoughtful as luce.

anyhow,
open your heart and watch this show with the same respect and not with a jaundiced eye.

I'll be brave too..

Imagine me and you, I do.

I think about you day and night, it's only right.

To think about the girl you love and hold her tight.

So happy together.

If I should call you up, invest a dime.

And you say you belong to me and ease my mind.

Imagine how the world could be, so very fine.

So happy together.

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you,

For all my life.

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue,

For all my life.

Me and you and you and me.

No matter how they toss the dice,

it has to be.

The only one for me is you, and you for me.

So happy together.

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you,

For all my life.

When you're with me,

baby the skies'll be blue.

For all my life.

So happy together.

So happy together.How is the weather?

So happy together.

We're happy together.

So happy together.

Happy together.

So happy together.

So happy together.

(ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)

Finally with sufficient sleep.

sjab camp was good. Everything went ok except for the minor gliches in the attitudes of some ppl and those stupid hooligans we bumped into at holland V. Actually, the things they did were simply hilarious.

Bravo was soooo good this time. =)

here's a couple of pics taken this past week:

Kboxing with the hallers.

doro, being the most natural ; sharon, trying to look like a pro singer ; jas, acting intellectual.

Spring cleaning with fh and estelle. i look like the terrorist force is CS.

Things we do when we're zzzy at 630 in the morning on the first night of camp.

hmm..i really had fun at camp. And a great experience seeing how different people have grown. Couldn't help but wonder, what happened to me?

more pics will be up if alan koh keeps his words and sends me the rest of the collated shots.

The ah bengs at Holland V are so very the childish.
1st time: we stare.
2nd time: we rolled our eyes and said thank you.
3rd time: we burst out in laughter.

Stupid things they do.

ANYWAY,

While waiting for jas at bukit batok mrt today,
A hot chick was asking for donations.
To every man she approached, she striked a conversation and flashed her most beautiful smile.
She even grazed her arm across this bangla.

Cheap.




oh well, i donated anyway.

WAHAHA.

that when i waked i cried to dream again.

How clean is clean?

How dirty is dirty?

How clean is dirty?

How dirty is clean?

Gvsc is ohana.

ohana means family.

And family means nobody gets left behind..
or forgotten.