Monday, May 28, 2007

Friends are friends forever.

Friends come and go in our life. Many a-time, we take those around us for granted. As new ones come, old ones gets forgotten. But have you ever had moments in your hectic life where flashes of the past appears? Where you suddenly think of a moment of struggle, be it big or small, and you saw a particular person's face appearing. It may be someone close to you now, once close to you or even a stranger but strangely enough, at that moment, these were the saviours.

I had the good fortune to meet up many of these kahkees recently. Some of which we've been constantly in contact with, some of which we used to mingle ard but was drawn apart as we move on in life. Hell, I have never even spoken to some of them before. But as we gather together and recollect the good ol' days, we found ourselves constantly shaking our heads at how naive we used to be. Belonging to two separate parties then, these differences merge the most impossible combinitions of people together and stories from both ends were said with no mallice intended.

Sometimes, we talk about occassions in life that we have actually forgotten. But once mentioned, the spark blew and you remember how it was then. These recalled memories may be small incidents that mattered nothing to you at that point of time, but as you think back, you're grateful for that person. Even if it was just a single pat.

Such are the wonders of life.

So this is a tribute..
a tribute to all these people in my life.

Take life as a box of sand. If you have left your prints in mine, both deep or gentle, this is for you. If you have taken a shovel to smoothen out some irregularities, this is for you. If in the rain, some bits of sand got stuck together and you helped disperse them to pieces once more, this is for you. This is for all of you who laughed with me, who cried with me, who got dirty with me, who stayed clean with me. This is for all of you who believed in me, who placed their trust in me, who felt happy when i'm happy, who worried for me, who stuck with me through everything.

As i proceeded on from presch --> kindergarden --> pri --> sec --> jc --> uni, many ppl have came and left my life. Some stayed, some didn't. But nevertheless, all mattered. If you read this and you smiled INSIDE, you are one of them.

To those i often tell, to those i seldom tell, to those i always meet, to those i never/seldom meet..

THANK YOU.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

If i got down on my knees and i pleaded with you,
If i crossed a million oceans just to be with you,
Would you ever let me down?

If i climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight,
If i said that i would love you every single night,
Would you ever let me down?

Well i'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad,
it's just that..

worried,
So worried, that you'll let me down.
unemployed..
no longer!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Yo Ho! Yo Ho! A pirates' life for me.

After spending 3 consecutive days scouting for jobs BUT to no avail, we were beginning to feel discouraged and dejected. It is so hard to find jobs in singapore i tell you.. they have too many ppl to pick from and 2 person looking for a 3 month vacation job will always be the last in priority. So..in an attempt to cheer ourselves up, we dragged our stubborn, heavy legs to cineleisure to see if they were still airing ' 200 pounds beauty. '

We got more than we asked for..

Thousands and thousands of slots of POTC 3 with NO QUEUE and perfect seats! To hell with job-hunting.. Keira Knightley, here i come! The show was toooo long and not as nice as expected.. Maybe i have to watch it more than once. But who's to complain? I got to see my beautiful lady for 3 concrete hours!

Apart from the draggy-ness, the show was still a hit. Johnny Depp never failed to make the movie one of the rare few that made me laugh out loud in cinemas. I love his speak-a-thousand-words eyes. They truly display the primary expressions of xi, nu, ai and le. Barbossa ( if that's how it's spelt ) was good too. Needless to say, Keira Knightley still turns me on. Orlando Bloom was a disappointment. He never seemed to change from the first episode till date. I think i still prefer him with those elf ears and white straight hair. wahaha..

a'right. I'm beat.
Night all.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

HELLO, ANYONE HAVEN'T WATCHED SPIDEMAN YET?

Everyoneelse went without me. :(

on a brighter note, POTC 3 is coming out soon! and my keira knightley is looking way prettier than the past. WHO ELSE CAN BE PRETTIER THAN HER?!

watched 'next' last night with 52-ers. It was nice until the ending. stupid stupid ending!

I think both me and my mother are not used to the fact that i'll be staying at home the next 3 months. I can't stand her naggings and she can't stand my mess. And my grandmother! oh bother..she's just like " lao fuo ye " in hzgg. Don't mind me, i'm currently hooked to it again. wahaha..

SOOOOO,
ANYONE HAVEN'T WATCHED SPIDERMAN YET?

Thursday, May 03, 2007

MAD I

All the leaves are brown, and the sky is grey. I've been working here, for the past few days. I'ld be safe and warm, if i'm back in singapore. Chiang mai dreaming! - Emily Li.

MJ said it all. Must we say more?


You know how we always talk and talk and talk but get nothing done. I say it's about time we put these words into actions.


Sidenote: xie, you looked disgusting.
sidenote2: tribute to CMT and nanjing video up once i'm less lazy.

Monday, April 30, 2007

Sound the bugle now,
play it just for me.
As the seasons change,
remember how I used to be.

Now I can't go on.
I can't even start.
I've got nothing left just an empty heart.

I'm a soldier.
wounded so I MUST give up the fight.
There's nothing more for me,
lead me away...
Or leave me lying here.

Sound the bugle now,
tell them I don't care.
There's not a road I know,
that leads to anywhere.

Without a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark.

Lay right down,
decide not to go on.
Then from up high,
somewhere in the distance..

There's a voice that calls,
remember who your are!

If you lose yourself,
your courage soon will follow.

So be strong tonight,
remember who you are.

You're a soldier now,
fighting in a battle.
To be free once more..
Ya that's worth fighting for !

Saturday, April 28, 2007

concentrate concentrate concentrate!
focus focus focus!
STAY STAY STAY!

OHMMMMMMMMMMMM!

Friday, April 27, 2007

I pace the school with deep regrets for not working hard this sem.
Or will i ever?

What does my future have installed for me?
Having to go through this ordeal once more with no familiar faces around?

Breathe! Breathe!

The threat is real now.

Breathe breathe!

It's a miracle if i can even pass.

Breatheeee BREEAATTHHEE!!!!!

oh bother.
Come What May.

All the best to the rest of you who still have a chance.
Learn from my mistakes.
start studying TODAY.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Disgraceful, crazy, absent minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.

I don wanna be sober.
Exam's TOMORROW and i'm only halfway done.
There's something cursed about me this sem.
Something even more cursed.

On the verge of giving up.
Just one more push and i will just drop it off.
But what pride will i feel?
When everyoneelse collects their results, i'll be thinking.. " hmm...what if i took the papers? "


shu juan asked me to stop thinking.
At the same time, she commented that it's impossible for me to stop thinking.

That's the whole problem issnt it?

Oh, let me be retarded pls.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Baby不要再哭泣,
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走去跟随
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

Sunday, April 22, 2007

This exam's a goner.
Everything's so tough and i have another 2 weeks to go.
TWO WEEKS!
Both paper of which i haven't studied.


Someone pray many many for me?

Friday, April 20, 2007

i'll tell you what i want, what i really really want.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Well,

HELLO JUNIORS FROM MJ!
see you in the same lect hall next sem.



oh ya, no cancer.


Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Uni is supposed to be fun!

Am i / we to go through this every sem?

The anticipation, the fear. It's killing me.
i should take jas's advice and just study, not think so much.
But my mind's like a bullet train. Worst yet, an auto-pilot bullet train.

i can't wait for the exams to end.
I hope the 3 mnths of holiday can make up for everything.
For all the lost time.

but hey.. i'm not supposed to hope. =S

Thursday, April 12, 2007

have you ever felt like ur head's an empty space?
Nothing but air.
Despite putting information inside, nothing seems to go in place.

Day by day, i'm starting to live like i have no control of my life. Time fly by me without my realisation. I stare out everyday, my eyes not fixed on anything. most of the time.

Even if i do, it's at my own temptation and not what i have to do.

Who am i kidding?
Uni is not for me.
Why did i try to be such a hero?
Why did i try on this path, knowing i'm not meant for it?

I feel the stress rising, far beyond what i can handle.
But at the same time, i feel guilty and unworthy of this stress. For i haven't been putting in my heart and soul at studying.
Whose fault is it but mine?

Distracted.
My focus's not on my education right now, but other forces stronger and closer to me.

The walls are yelling out at me.
They're sneering, they're laughing.
Yes, i know..
I don't belong here.

Saturday, April 07, 2007



ANYWAY.
People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.
People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be.





We fight hardest for things we most believe in.
Impossible is nothing.

Monday, April 02, 2007

I'm immobilised.
Both virtually and physically.

The mockary of life.
All along i've yearned the life of a king. And that was what i experience the past couple of days. All i had to do was wake up, eat, zzz. Wake up, eat, zzz.

It's too easy getting used to this kinda life. The comfort of shaking ur legs while others clean ur dirt for you. Sounds enticing doesn't it?

Well, not really.

Such previledges only comes when you're really weak or deemed useless to do anything. And even though it rocks caring about nothing except when your next meal is, the accumulated fats you know u have to rid in time to come and the sense of uselessness eats you.

So test results will be out only in 2 weeks time. In b/w which, i still have to find the motivation to mug for the exams. Do badly, i will.

Have you ever been stuck in a paradox of evil and good. Of doing what you want and what others want? Or in a more nobel sense of it all, being selfish or selfless.

What is right, what is wrong? What if whatever you think is right is actually wrong? What if everything you say is wrong is actually right?

Let ur guard down a lil, and you'll soon find urself halfway down the pit. What's worst.. the same old pit.

Once again, " what next? " comes.

The mockary of life, ladies and gentlemen.
The mockary of life.

i don't mind if you don't mind.
Coz i don't shine if you don't shine.
Before you go,
can you read my mind?

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds sad,
it's just that I'm worried,
so worried.
That you'll let me down.