Sound the bugle now,
play it just for me.
As the seasons change,
remember how I used to be.

Now I can't go on.
I can't even start.
I've got nothing left just an empty heart.

I'm a soldier.
wounded so I MUST give up the fight.
There's nothing more for me,
lead me away...
Or leave me lying here.

Sound the bugle now,
tell them I don't care.
There's not a road I know,
that leads to anywhere.

Without a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark.

Lay right down,
decide not to go on.
Then from up high,
somewhere in the distance..

There's a voice that calls,
remember who your are!

If you lose yourself,
your courage soon will follow.

So be strong tonight,
remember who you are.

You're a soldier now,
fighting in a battle.
To be free once more..
Ya that's worth fighting for !

concentrate concentrate concentrate!
focus focus focus!
STAY STAY STAY!

OHMMMMMMMMMMMM!

I pace the school with deep regrets for not working hard this sem.
Or will i ever?

What does my future have installed for me?
Having to go through this ordeal once more with no familiar faces around?

Breathe! Breathe!

The threat is real now.

Breathe breathe!

It's a miracle if i can even pass.

Breatheeee BREEAATTHHEE!!!!!

oh bother.
Come What May.

All the best to the rest of you who still have a chance.
Learn from my mistakes.
start studying TODAY.

Disgraceful, crazy, absent minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.

I don wanna be sober.
Exam's TOMORROW and i'm only halfway done.
There's something cursed about me this sem.
Something even more cursed.

On the verge of giving up.
Just one more push and i will just drop it off.
But what pride will i feel?
When everyoneelse collects their results, i'll be thinking.. " hmm...what if i took the papers? "


shu juan asked me to stop thinking.
At the same time, she commented that it's impossible for me to stop thinking.

That's the whole problem issnt it?

Oh, let me be retarded pls.

Baby不要再哭泣,
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量

付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走去跟随

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye

爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

This exam's a goner.
Everything's so tough and i have another 2 weeks to go.
TWO WEEKS!
Both paper of which i haven't studied.


Someone pray many many for me?

i'll tell you what i want, what i really really want.

Well,

HELLO JUNIORS FROM MJ!
see you in the same lect hall next sem.



oh ya, no cancer.

Uni is supposed to be fun!

Am i / we to go through this every sem?

The anticipation, the fear. It's killing me.
i should take jas's advice and just study, not think so much.
But my mind's like a bullet train. Worst yet, an auto-pilot bullet train.

i can't wait for the exams to end.
I hope the 3 mnths of holiday can make up for everything.
For all the lost time.

but hey.. i'm not supposed to hope. =S

have you ever felt like ur head's an empty space?
Nothing but air.
Despite putting information inside, nothing seems to go in place.

Day by day, i'm starting to live like i have no control of my life. Time fly by me without my realisation. I stare out everyday, my eyes not fixed on anything. most of the time.

Even if i do, it's at my own temptation and not what i have to do.

Who am i kidding?
Uni is not for me.
Why did i try to be such a hero?
Why did i try on this path, knowing i'm not meant for it?

I feel the stress rising, far beyond what i can handle.
But at the same time, i feel guilty and unworthy of this stress. For i haven't been putting in my heart and soul at studying.
Whose fault is it but mine?

Distracted.
My focus's not on my education right now, but other forces stronger and closer to me.

The walls are yelling out at me.
They're sneering, they're laughing.
Yes, i know..
I don't belong here.

ANYWAY.

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.

Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.

Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.

Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.

Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.

Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.

Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.

Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.

Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.

Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.

Give the world the best you have anyway.

Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be.





We fight hardest for things we most believe in.
Impossible is nothing.

I'm immobilised.
Both virtually and physically.

The mockary of life.
All along i've yearned the life of a king. And that was what i experience the past couple of days. All i had to do was wake up, eat, zzz. Wake up, eat, zzz.

It's too easy getting used to this kinda life. The comfort of shaking ur legs while others clean ur dirt for you. Sounds enticing doesn't it?

Well, not really.

Such previledges only comes when you're really weak or deemed useless to do anything. And even though it rocks caring about nothing except when your next meal is, the accumulated fats you know u have to rid in time to come and the sense of uselessness eats you.

So test results will be out only in 2 weeks time. In b/w which, i still have to find the motivation to mug for the exams. Do badly, i will.

Have you ever been stuck in a paradox of evil and good. Of doing what you want and what others want? Or in a more nobel sense of it all, being selfish or selfless.

What is right, what is wrong? What if whatever you think is right is actually wrong? What if everything you say is wrong is actually right?

Let ur guard down a lil, and you'll soon find urself halfway down the pit. What's worst.. the same old pit.

Once again, " what next? " comes.

The mockary of life, ladies and gentlemen.
The mockary of life.

i don't mind if you don't mind.
Coz i don't shine if you don't shine.
Before you go,
can you read my mind?

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds sad,

it's just that I'm worried,
so worried.

That you'll let me down.

Lovebites 2007 .
Its finally OVER. No more liaising. No more late nights.

Thanks Xiu and Sheryl for agreeing to be my emcees. U save the day with all the impromptu hosting during the technical glitches. And to Huitann for your help in getting me the performers. Can't thank you guys enough.

Saturday was the most busy day. Keeping the performances in check was my first priority. Performances were back to back. There were technical glitches that marred the performances. I kinda feel bad to some of the performers because i know their confidence would be shattered when there were hiccups. And to the lovebites commitee members whom i raised my voice at when i got a little pek chek, I did not mean it that way. Its just to get things done. But it's a relieve that everything was alright in the end, with just occassional hiccups here and there.

There was an auction on Sunday. Xie was the auctioner and i was the SHOWGIRL. hahaha. It was a not bad experience as i "sashayed" on stage with all the items. I must say that we did a not bad job as most of the items were auctioned off.

Novena square was not really a very crowded place but we managed to raise quite alot of money and we almost hit our target. Yay. Thanks to those we helped one way or another.


and thanks to the one who helped me blogged about lovebites. HAHAHA.

laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
1 hall 500 people
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
half guys
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
250 guys in hall
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
out of 250, 1 out of 5 is attached
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
200 available
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
half from weird countries
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
100 left
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
1/2 are jerks
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
50
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
1 out of 10 are handsome
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
left5
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
out of 5, they prob not christian
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
haha 0


HAHAHA.
Laureen's definitely too bored.

Define FM : cuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.



Sidenote: i don't TaLK liKe ThIs.

i'm at macdonald's now. Can't study. FM is such a bore. someone help me. i must buck up this sem.

My watch is badly scratched. Its so eye-catching. I must get rid of the scratches soon. I got the scratches when i went clubbing with my hall people. I did not know how i got so drunk that day. sorry people for scratching the watch.

I have fat fingers. Someone please TEll mE hoW TO makE tHem tHinNEr.

i'vE decided to go on an EXTREME DIET.

I think my acct tut mates are starting to hate me. Can't blame em. I haven't really been contributing much to the proj which is due.... MONDAY. There goes my peer evaluation and class participation.

Maybe this is why i didn't choose accting right from the start.

Jas and i woke up really early this morning to make a trip down to geylang for dou jiang you tiao and durians. Funny how we can't find the same motivation to get up for tutorials. haha..

Exams are coming in less than a month's time now. Yet i still haven't found the drive to mug. This is really bad. I've been a real procrastinator this sem. Much worst than the previous sem. Just what the hell is wrong with me?

Ponning lectures, ponning tutorials, failing quizzes, pushing responsibilities and clueless about everything.

Totally hopeless.

Sidenote: I can't write chinese.

i've realized i've become cheena after coming to ntu. so now i shall post in chinese.

我想念亚龙(geylang)的食物。最近我不知道我为何有那么多的渴望，亚龙的豆浆油条让我难以忘怀.

I have to say my chinese did improved. The food at geylang is damn good.

tempted?