So sick of browsing through forums. The company needs to learn how to look at the bigger picture.

And so do I.



Listening to the songs I used to listen to on days I wake up, smile and thank god for her and on weekends where she filled my mind brings about such a deep ache within, I can actually tear.

I used to sing along to these songs with KS while we strolled to Summer Breeze. It was like this from when I could only see her till when my vision broadened to her and the fact that she wasn't standing alone.

The truth is, she could have and would have broken me many times before. Many many times before. But every time I nearly caved, I find her next to him.

And I become fearful again.

That serves as a reminder dude. I'm afraid of falling back into that jealousy insecure cycle.

I often think of the days when we used to hang out for dinner, catch a movie once in a while or knowing that we have one another. And it is still THAT great when we spend time together!

But despite that, I'm not the same anymore. I cannot accept the things I used to before.

You were my strength.

But it is obvious that you won't leave him.

It was hard enough watching her walk away time and again. I don't think I'm strong enough to go through it again.

I miss you.
But I can't go on without anyone making a move. Someone has to yield.







Guess that has to me.