Sometimes I do wonder if I'm sacrificing a little too much for the NOW.

What used to be fun have evolved into your convenience.

Coz you see, I'm starting to get a lil bit edgy, a lil bit confused and a lil bit unhappy with the mind-guessing. With the varying body language. And the dissociation between words and actions.

I need to reserve some self-respect for myself.

This morning, the family wanted to send alex and myself to work. But I rejected it yet again. Just so we could have a little ride together. But then, I can't help but wonder if you're just here because he's not. And what in the world is gonna happen when he comes back?

Am I just your super convenient spare tire?