laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
1 hall 500 people
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
half guys
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
250 guys in hall
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
out of 250, 1 out of 5 is attached
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
200 available
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
half from weird countries
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
100 left
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
1/2 are jerks
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
50
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
1 out of 10 are handsome
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
left5
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
out of 5, they prob not christian
laur [♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠] [FOBC]: OK!! i'll get a pair of red shorts, if it pleases all of you! haha says:
haha 0


HAHAHA.
Laureen's definitely too bored.

Define FM : cuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.



Sidenote: i don't TaLK liKe ThIs.

i'm at macdonald's now. Can't study. FM is such a bore. someone help me. i must buck up this sem.

My watch is badly scratched. Its so eye-catching. I must get rid of the scratches soon. I got the scratches when i went clubbing with my hall people. I did not know how i got so drunk that day. sorry people for scratching the watch.

I have fat fingers. Someone please TEll mE hoW TO makE tHem tHinNEr.

i'vE decided to go on an EXTREME DIET.

I think my acct tut mates are starting to hate me. Can't blame em. I haven't really been contributing much to the proj which is due.... MONDAY. There goes my peer evaluation and class participation.

Maybe this is why i didn't choose accting right from the start.

Jas and i woke up really early this morning to make a trip down to geylang for dou jiang you tiao and durians. Funny how we can't find the same motivation to get up for tutorials. haha..

Exams are coming in less than a month's time now. Yet i still haven't found the drive to mug. This is really bad. I've been a real procrastinator this sem. Much worst than the previous sem. Just what the hell is wrong with me?

Ponning lectures, ponning tutorials, failing quizzes, pushing responsibilities and clueless about everything.

Totally hopeless.

Sidenote: I can't write chinese.

i've realized i've become cheena after coming to ntu. so now i shall post in chinese.

我想念亚龙(geylang)的食物。最近我不知道我为何有那么多的渴望，亚龙的豆浆油条让我难以忘怀.

I have to say my chinese did improved. The food at geylang is damn good.

tempted?

ALWAYS REMEMBER TO LOG OUT FROM BLOGGER AFTER USE.

Haven't been updating in a long time. Since Karen tricked me into waiting for >1 hr for her to finish her "last bit" of the accting proj, i shall try to talk some kok today.

This sem's still pretty much madness for me. The irresponsibility of my actions are starting to haunt me. MTT have always been instilling in us that in whatever we do, we have to start and end it well. Unfortunately, i have been doing the exact opposite.

But i guess this is life and i gotta get used to it. Next sem will be worse. :(

Lovebites is finally happening. Finally. It's next fri, sat and sun. I hope it goes well. There are too many different characters in the committee. But that doesn't mean things can't get done. The biggest prob is, everyone has different goals. A charity event? Ha. Charity is just a front. Some word to make us look noble and for people to look up upon. It's quite hypocritical actually, that we focus on the word charity as we promote ourselves or invite performers or vendors over when we actually have ulterior meaning to this whole project.

Ok, maybe 'we' is an over-generalised word. somebody. heh. I think jasmine rubbed some of her cynicism off on me.

Nevertheless, please do come and support us. At least contribute to the crowd. :D

Date: 23rd, 24th, 35 march 07
Venue: Novena Square.


HEY YOU! 就是你 請靠近我懷裡 別假裝不在意 我可能喜歡你
SO BABY就是你 請說你很開心 我有點喜歡你
有點喜歡你~

i'm addicted to prison break. its all karen's fault. i dun understand why people say schoefield is handsome. he looks like a snake. lincoln looks much nicer. i found out i've become quite bimbotic these days. I have cravings. Can u believe it?? What is happening to me?!!

i feel so sleepy. help me.

to make myself more awake, i decided to put another picture of myself.

tell me... how do i look???

Accounting test tomorrow. shit.

totally hate uni life. hate accounting. hate fm. hate biz law. hate comms management.

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Boring person. so nothing to type.

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Goodnight all!

Weet! news in a lil late but i heard mjc did better than tjc this yr.
True?

wahahaha! well done younger ones! =)

What goes up must come down.

Should i ever thank you, oh great one above?
When will you ever deserve my heartfelt gratitude?

Reasons why i can go and die now:

1) I've wasted my mid-sem break.
2) I missed my accting quiz 1.
3) I'm going to miss my accting quiz 2.
4) I'm still not done studying for ANY subject
5) I forgot to pay my school fees.
6) I just caused serious damage to the car.
7) My IT's done for.
8) My comm's done for.
9) I've been skipping too much comms lesson.
10) I'm gonna miss comm's graded presentation.
11) My FM quiz sucked.
12) I'm still addicted to prison break at a critical time like now.


Enough reason?

One final best of luck to ALL receiving their A level results today. ALL.

someone used this to calm me down:
If god brings you to it, he'll bring you through it.

It's been a fun couple of days, i guess.
Pictures will be up if i still feel like posting em tml.
So the fun ends now and study starts.

Stupid semester.


Now i'm almost over you,
I've almost shook these blues.
So when you come back around,
after painting the town.
You'll see,
I'm almost over you.

But she has a curse on her - a curse she cannot win.

For if they get too close to her,

the pins sticks further in.

Kite flying. =)

GONG XI! GONG XI!
GONG XI FA CAI!
It's the official festive season to get fat again!
I hope everyone have been showered with tons of ang baos and feasting in sinful goodies so i wont look THAT fat when i get out of the house. wahaha..

My family decided to dine out in a restaurant for our reunion dinner this yr. If you ask me, i'ld prefer having it at home. The atmosphere's more lively and happening. But that's of course coz i don't do the dishes thereafter. tsk tsk. when will i ever behave like a daughter?

Dinner was ok. I didn't really enjoy it except for the SALMON yu sheng. Seriously, i've never eaten so much yu sheng in my life. I always found it too sweet.but not anymore! Salmon just made everything taste...perfect. wahaha.

CNY seems a lil bland without justin and wei wei ard. Although the preferential treatment they get is quite sickening, i must admit that they certainly do add on to the laughters. Heard they'll be in singapore for the next new yr. i'm keeping my fingers crossed. =)

Alex has been downloading 'lost 3' every week for 6 wks now. Unable to send it to my comp, he burned it into cds for me. and IT ROCKS! It's way more exciting than season 1 or 2. must watch, must watch! I can't wait for next week so alex can send me another episode. It's comical how the directors can make so many seasons outta a grp of passangers being stuck on a dumb island. Anyway, my family is pretty convinced that the show's more or less about life in the purgatory - some prayer place for catholics who have died. We even have evidence to back our thesis. haha..

I thought 04s307 could meet up for cny this yr. But alas, it was not meant to be. :( 4e1'03 is gonna have a reunion too. i hope i can make it.. it's been a long time since i last saw mrs tan..

I guess i really am losing touch with blogging.

Before i go, i just gotta say...

I CAUGHT 'GHOST RIDER' ON FRIDAY NIGHT!

yes, yes..
i know it isn't really a horror flick but hey! Everybody gotta start somewhere right?

Besides, i was braver than jasmine. wahaha..
So now she owes me an, " oh yvonne jie jie, you're so brave! "

HAHA. =))

A BOOZELESS NEW YR TO EVERYONE!

i really can't cope.

Plagued.
Have i ever mention how terrible this sem is?
Every subject's so hard to comprehend.
I'm starting to realise how unsuitable i am for uni. Perhaps i'm to unrefined. Most ppl here speaks with such poise and pride in themselves. I really wonder if i was like that in secondary school because most of the time, i find them looking disgusting. haha..

Watched Poissedon this afternoon with jas and karen. ( yes, i know i'm kinda behind time. ) The way mother nature takes life back is kinda scary. Imagine us really caught in a scenario as such.. i wonder how many ppl would honestly step up and take the lead. I wonder if i would..

Anyway, cny's round the corner. More bakwas, more goodies and most importantly, more money. wahaha.. honestly, feb is a super tight month for me. I wonder where all my money flowed to.. it seems to be depleting by the hr.

Lotsa activities and gatherings come up. Just nice. Let me have all the fun once and for all before i need a looooong break to get up again.

Been taking up squash lately and i like it! This is the way la. Consistent exercises ; new experiences. Makes me feel so much better. I hope i wont lose this energy after my rest.

extreme randomness. I think i'm losing touch with blogging alrdy.

a'right then, i'm zzzy alrdy.

Goodnight one, goodnight all.

all hail me!

i'm the king of procrastination.

Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be.

Killer backache.
Painful diarrehoe. diarrhea.
i badly need my yoko yoko.



How many special ppl change?
How many lives are living strange?

Lovebites pre-event came and went.
I guess you could say it was pretty smooth sailing apart from a couple of hiccups. My mind probably hasn't switch to the back-to-studies tempo seeing that i've been having a string of weird dreams, including mending more stalls.

I hope lovebites next yr would have ppl from various blocks as well as a more proper recording system. It's really funny to tell the world that we have a 10 yr history with no proper form of handover, no fixed logo, no regulars and no improvements. A short conversation with priscilla made me realise that despite having a single blk dominate the main committee for yrs, lovebite's reputation still carries the word, " cui. "

Of course, i'm kinda disappointed that hall 10 themselves weren't really supportive of the event. A few familiar faces were seen. Mostly from 51 i guess. 50 had a few ppl.. 52 had only..err...darren, peter and yun xuan? oh..mag, kevin and shawn also. i'm sorry but i can't rem any from 49. oh wait! there's ferda. ( i hope i spelt her name correctly. )

At the same time, here's a heartfelt thank you to those frm 04s307 who dropped by.. namely sandy, jia yun, nene and yuan fang? ah bert lied. she didn't show up. Nene came on BOTH days with her same FEW friends. hahaha...but it's the thought that counts right? Who else would make her way from Cant A to Cant B just to say hi? That's why i'm buying bak kwa from her..so we're quits now. haha.. i hope i didn't leave anyone out. If i did, i'm sorry. I'm not unappreciative, i'm just having some memory lapse now. :(

I heard O level results are gonna be out coming friday. Give it a week or 2 and the A levels will be out. That's quick. How time flies. It seems like i just took my results not too long ago. Soon, more familiar faces will be seen. heh.

I really dislike this sem. I have no want to study, no want to go school, no want to see my classmates. We're like of exact opposite worlds. Not in the " i find you ppl interesting " way but in the " lets just keep out of each other's way " way.

I think the world is coming to an end. Look at how the seasons are changing. These are signs. Thanks to man's selfish needs, global warming --> melting of ice caps --> floods, seasonal change ,etc. --> end of the world. It that's true, then it's really sad coz we're wasting our time studying the determinants of interest rates now.

Speaking of which, can someone pls help me with interest rates? A whole afternoon dedicated solely to that topic and still i don't understand.

Damn this bloody backache. Someone get me a yoko-yoko!



Maybe i don wanna be reminded.

It's hard to say it, time to say it.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.

Impromptu banner painting, many mini EC mtgs, half tutorial doing, accting quiz studying, embarassing ourselves at blk 49. And all without falling aslp.

yay.
Finally a fruitful night.

Possible accting quiz tml. Wish me luck.

sidenote: Free lovebites publicity @ www.04s307.blogspot.com . Thank you ah bert! Told you she loves me.


Brrr. Go away you cold cold La Nina.

It's getting hard to be around you,
there's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to hide the feelings,
and look the other way?

And I don't know how to be fine when i'm not.
Coz' I don't know how to make a feeling stop.

Just so you know,
this feeling's taking control of me.
And i can't help it.
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I've tried my best to let go of you.
But I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all before i go,
just so you know.

It's 5am.
I just spent 3 concrete hrs doing IT.
I have yet to pack my bag.
I have to leave house at 630am to send alvin and myself to school.

Mother is gonna kill me if she reads this.

i'm losing control.

They say it's best to watch soccer live.
Since i don't have the good fortune to catch either the world cup or EPL live, i shall settle for the next best alternative - the ASEAN FOOTBALL CHAMPIONSHIP.

Apart from MJ's soccer matches, this was the first time i watched a live match, one of the rare times i'm spending hours only with my 2 brothers and if i'm not wrong, the first time the tickets were sold out.

The match wasn't good. I thought malaysia was clearly a better team. The lions were lertagic and rather skill-less. They kicked the ball as soon as it touches their feet and they have problem receiving balls meant for them. Of course, there were a couple of great dribbles but that's kinda expected since they're the national team.

Singaporeans are really hostile and childish at times. They boo-ed whenever the malaysians had possession of the ball and cheered whenever the lions were the one in contro. Whatever happened to fair play and sportmanship? The crowd was so rowdy that by the end of the match, policemen had surrounded the malaysians in an attempt to prevent any fights from happening, i suppose.

anyw, they played till overtime where singapore was tied with malaysia at 1-1 and the lions eventually won in a 5-4 penalty shoot out.

so... singapore to enter world cup in 2010?
well, always aim for the sky, they say. so if we fail, we'll land on the stars.

went to study with hush today.
She has a serious problem. Whenever i'm with her, i'ld either find myself surrounded by banglahs or trying to get rid of ah peks who tries to engage in small talks with her. OR BOTH.
haha..

sidenote: i love cocoa trees's chocolates.

The cheerleaders were good.

FoR xIe WhO SeLFiShLy TuRnEd OfF tHe CoMmEnTs BoArD foR HeR lAsT eNtRy:

wOw. 19 yRs oLd. I bEt sHe'Ll Be As TaLL aS mE bUt ApArT fRm ThAt, I'm SuRe DeSpItE tHe YeArS, sHe'S sTiLl As BeAuTiFuL, sTiLl As BuBbLy AnD mOsT iMpOrTaNtLy StiLL MeLtS yOuR hEaRt.

I wOnDeR hOw She MaNaGeD tO bLoG LiKe ThIs. It'S so TiMe cOnSuMiNg aNd It LoOkS UgLy!

u've grown, xie.
I remember how obstinate u were then. Well, as a matter of fact, still is. haha.. but u're MUCH more than that now. Nicole to you, jin to me, is proud. i'm sure.

and you're right.. she has always been ard.


To the forever young jin! =)

The cheerleaders are gonna compete tml night against the other halls. All their back sprains, blue blacks, sored muscles, kicked heads, crooked chin, late nights and many many sacrifices will come to an end after tml.

I think it's gonna be a huge event.

so before i zzz, Here's a big BEST OF LUCK to all hall x's cheerleaders. Particularly, jill, jas and karen.

aza aza fighting!

sometimes, it's better not to hope.

Man U lost to arsenal. Major shocker. although i predicted the score right. Arsenal 2, Man U 1. Told u i'm jinxed.

Everytime i tell the world i wanna go swim, it ends up raining. So today, i tried something different. I didn't tell a single soul about my intention to swim. Only when mother came back did i grab my stuffs and her car keys in record time and sped all the way to estella gardens. Dropped by downtown east first, of course. Wanted to collect the vouchers for lovebites. That bloody haslinda fella was so hard to get! But she can't be blamed. I forgot that it's a 5 days work week now. dammit.

ANYW, it didn't rain. hahaha. what was amazing was, when i yelled out to mother that i was going for a swim, dark clouds appeared almost immediately. no kidding! i have my mum to vouche for me. Told you i'm jinxed.

heh.

The cheerleaders were amazing today. Though there was a not-so-tiny accident, they finished it off pretty well. I salute them for their efforts.

And i'm still completely in love with nike considered low 4. Define beauty.

off to bath now. goodnight all.

nike considered low 4.

Some says it's ah pek-ish.
I call it style.

kl hates the holes at the side. She says it looks 'mor peng'. haha... but hey, nothing's perfect in this world right? muahaha.

Man U VS Arsenal tml.
Cheerleading's full-dressed rehearsal tml.

HOW?

When the dog bites!
when the bee stings!
when I'm feeling sad..
I simply remember my favorite things,
and then I don't feel, so bad!

Took my final ride with steven's baby last night. He's gonna sell his bike today and get a car instead. rich bloke.

Both of us are so gonna miss it.

We went to lim chu kang coast guard and sat above the waters for close to 2 hrs. Did the talk clear our minds last night? Maybe yes, maybe no. But whatever it did, it's effects became highly negative today. I'm so sick of this.

Double standards, misunderstandings.
It occurs all the time.
No matter how a person tries to change.
No matter how a person tries to avoid such things from happening.
It happens.
Double crossers? A spring board? A step up platform?
That's what it is. That's what it's called.
The bad guys wins all the time don't they?

Gifts are curses in disguise i suppose.

ah, such beautiful masks.
Such stupidity.



Why am i becoming a man i hate?

sidenote: plenty of thanks to huitann for the help of sourcing vendors. :)

I remember how much i hated cathechism. ( some church sch. )
The people were so unfriendly and loved acting cool, for guys, or bimbo, for girls.

There were only 2 reasons why i went:

1) mother wanted soooooooooooo much for me to go.
2) audrey and samantha were pretty. (wahahaha. )

But that was only 1 hr/week.


THIS is 13 hrs/week!



And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not.
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop!

Xie's grandpa passed on.
Huitann, ks and i just came back frm the wake.
Life is so unpredictable. Who knows when our last breath would be? That's why, as the old saying goes, we should always live life like it's the last day on earth.

oh, but what courage that must take.

xie's ok i guess. She was still joking and laughing ard with us. hopefully it wasn't just a front.

seeing how we were sitted tog at an atmosphere like that, i couldn't help but re-live the days 5 yrs ago. They were there then, and now, we're all gathered back together for a similar purpose. Of course, things aren't exactly the same. For one, huitann and i can take turns to be the chauffer now. ks will soon be able to join the club. dear xie, PLS BUCK UP!

I almost knocked someone down today. For reasons which has totally nothing to do with me. I have witnesses! i was obeying traffic rules. That bangla/indian/malay just dashed straight into my path all of a sudden.

Huitann's screams were scary. Her abusive curses thereafter were scarier. hahaha..

someone pls remind me that school term has started and i have to start doing tuts.

sidenote: cheer up, xie. he's in a better place now.

Flames to dust,
lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?

Garang guni! calling old newspapers!
So yesterday was lovebite's 2nd canvassing event.
Singaporeans are not as bad as they seem. Some of em actually do do their parts for charity as well. And that's a good sigh. hah.
We managed to get ALOT of old, unwanted stuffs.. hopefully the money brought in isn't disappointing .

This is embarrassing - I'm having muscle aches now. hahaha..
i had fun. =)


Well the dogs were whistling a new tune,
Barking at the new moon.
Hoping it would come soon so that they could..
diediediediedie.

watching step up for the thousandth time and i'm still not sick of it.
Thanks for the vid, jill!

That's what i was trying to do

This was exactly the reason why i didn't wanna make new friends.

it's like primary 1 all over again.

only this time, no mummy.

Charity = giving money.
Running a successful charity event = bringing in lots and lots of money.

Practical world.

What hurts the most.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house,
That don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out,
I'm not afraid to cry, every once, in a while.
Even though, going on, with you gone,
still.upsets.me.
There are days, every now, and again, I pretend, I'm ok,
But that's not.what.gets.me.

What hurts the most,
Was being so close.
And having so much to say,
and watching you walk away.
And never knowing,
What could have been,
And not seeing that loving you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go,
But I'm doin' It.
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone,
Still Harder, Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret.
But I know if I could do it over,
I would trade, give away, all the words that I saved, in my heart,
That.I.left.unspoken.

i badly need another swim.

I cant zzz. so i'm gonna be real guniang and do some reflections.

i'm glad that i spent this holiday catching up with gvsj, gvsc, the canoeists, 4e1'03 and 04s307.

Just the other day, on new years' eve, I counted down with the jnr canoeists - michelle and company's batch, @ Laiguang's place right after the MAD sjab retreat which had mtgs that lasted for almost the entire 3 days stay. no kidding!

It started with pot luck. I didn't even know i had to bring food! but i was really glad to see em all. Being the only snr before Andy showed up, i felt a lil uncomfortable initially.. but that was uncalled for coz once everyone started playing their 'asshole daidee', 'jenga' and 'x-box', all hell broke lose.

After the count down, about 5 of us spent appx more than an hr on the swing outside chit-chatting. Shimin and i started kicking balls before i mentioned that i wanted to get something from 7-11. to my surprise, everyonelse there said they'ld accompany me.

so the 6 of us - jia yi, yayun, shimin, raymond, zhe hou and i - went to ESSOmobil. michelle was too busy with her prom king. wahaha.. raymond smartly suggested walking to bedok jetty thereafter and we did.

It was fun talking about our generation's trend during our primary school days. u'ld be surprise that despite being only a yr older than them, we've had certain different trends in our own batches.

thinking back, i don't think i ever spent so much time talking to all of em before. Except for zhe hou who was half-aslp or far away from me during the journey, i got to talk to everyone who went. Shimin's right. it'll be hard for me to meet em anytime soon since the boys are going to become man.

I like their batch. The people there are nice and i admire their ability to remain as such a strong team even till now. Although i contribute no part to their unity, let me just be happy for once and say, i'm proud of em.

all in all, i was happy to spend nye with em even though i was a zombie the next day.. which was 04s307's gathering. wow. did i really make it through so many activities?

We went for dinner and i'm sorry jasper and shannon for inviting u all so last minute-ly. It was supposed to be a girls thing la. After dinner, we aimed to catch a movie but decided against after that and headed for bens & jerry's instead.

i didn't like the ice-cream.
And everyonelse did. what's wrong with my tastebuds? But i'm serious. The lime-mango flavour did taste like bodyshop. don't believe me? try it.

strawberry ice-creams at mamashops are still the best - cheap and good.

Today, i spent time with a 'pure-chinese' friend who was stalked by an old uncle and was labelled " french-chinese-who-will-make-a-million-bucks-in-10-yrs. " I had better keep this friend then, won't wanna lose out the fun when she turns rich. haha.. i'm a practical person, you know?

i know i've been talking alot recently but let me babber on for another 5 more days before school bloody starts and i have my nose stuck on books again.

goodnight.

Damn it, school starts in 5 days.

Mother brought Figo, the silky terrier, from my uncle's place over coz he just can't cope with the crazy combination of 2 dogs and a kitten and only figo can get along with fender.

I like it when i lie on the floor, shout for figo to come and thereafter having him lie beside me quietly to pat. I like it even more when Fender sees this and purposely meow sexily as she strolls pass me time and again to get my attn. wahaha..

Looks like animals gets jealous too.

Now, i'm having trouble keeping him away from her food and her away from his food.

Isn't there something more universal?

On a separate issue, i had a great time today. thanks for the jasmine tea, gifts and HONOURING my day. hahaha... Merry 10th day Christmas to you too! :)

i guess it's time i run,
far, far away;
Find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

As long as i know what i'm doing. As long as i know my conscience's clear. I shan't be bothered with what others think.

come sppt us.
cant A and cant B.

goodnight.

Ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun!

In a couple of hours time, i'm gonna hit the yr that makes me 20.

gosh..i'm so old now.

i'm still suffering frm lack of zzz from sjab retreat so i'll try getting my point across in the most lor soh way here.

2006 hasn't exactly been my best yr. Trouble came knocking on my door one after another. Some experiences were so 'amazing', i think i can actually make a movie outta it.

But it isn't THAT bad either..coz i think i made the most friends in 2006. Unfortuately, Some friends ran away when problems starting piling. Some disappeared. but those are just a minority. I found many more. Some helped me through the various difficult times. Some saw most of my unglam sides. Some changed my perspectives of things. Some will no matter what, see that the world is good. I also found and hopefully, kept a friend which stood by me through ALL my shit. ( i'm not gonna say ur name lest ur head swells again. haha.. )

Apart from the friends i made, i had more freedom from home this yr. i've never been to so many camps in a yr before, despite gvsc being notorious for the amt of camps they have. I got to night cycle THREE times, i had the chance to spend almost 2-3 full days out at sea alone in my canoe, i get to see how the '05 batch of canoeist grow and excel, i get to see many many netball matches, i get to know more about the teaching experience in gvss. And so many more!

Sad to say, i've become selfish in 2006 too. I've been so absorbed in settling my own rubbish that i wasn't there for many. I haven't been sensitive to the feelings of others or to make sure that i was there when they needed me.

Thank you all who made an impact, regardless big or small, in my life. i'll try to be more ard in time to come. =)

In 2007, i hope i change.
That i become less selfish.
That i abort N.A.T.O.
That i mean what i say, say what i mean.
That i dare to be different.
That i frisk less.

In 2007, i want to grow.
At the same time, i want to take a step back, I want to take a slow walk and smell the roses.

2007 will be better.

A'right all, gonna meet the '05 canoeists alrdy..

Happy new yr! :)

i'm sorry my friends, i just need some alone time.

BEWARE!

I am having PMS.

So this is christmas.

I woke up this afternoon with the same feeling i had last yr - cold, confused, lazy to think.

The Straits Times reported yesterday that christmas is the hardest time for single woman. I initially took the article as nothing...until i left home. At the MRT station, i suddenly thought of mother. She has nobody to celebrate christmas with. She's so alone. So i messaged both my brothers to find out if they'll be home. None answered. As such, i went for dinner with 52-ers in a foul mood. i was so ready to leave early to spend time with mother.

I talked kok.
I only returned home at 6 am. After the entirely family, including fender no. 1, was soundly asleep. HAHAHA.

this was what happened:

A total of 14 of us feasted at 'simply paranakan' @ esplanade. It has been exactly 365 days since i last stepped into esplanade and i'm sad to say, except for the art pieces on the stretch of road from citylink to esplanade, everythingelse was pretty much the same.

After dinner, we walked to the merlion, stoned for like forever before they decided to catch a movie. I heard they were eyeing 'curse of the golden flower' or 'night at the museum'. Since i wasn't interested in the former, have watched the latter and told 3sa and hush that i'll show my face at christmas@orchard, I left the group and headed to the smelly, sticky and cramped up town ALONE.

After squeezing through the mob and surviving the snow spray attacks, i finally found the stage and the council with it. It was roughly 5 songs till the actual countdown. So i waited.... and waited.

5...4...3...2...1.
The crowd went amok.
So did the banglahs.

They gathered together and started swaying and pushing. I think the emcee was shocked herself. So many people nearly fell. So many threw their tantrums and started yelling. At least one girl got molested. And i witnessed it.

She was right in front of me. Cramped, surrounded and stuck in between banglahs. She looked 16-ish and was using both her hands to protect her front, leaving her back vulnerable. While everyone was getting sweaty and dirty, i heard her yell, " Stop touching my body! "

I guess since i was standing right next to her and am physically short, i was the only one who heard her yell. When i turned about to check out the commotion, i saw a plump blanglah ( i think this is the first time i see a fat banglah. ), who was pinned to her back, reaching out for her ass.

I grabbed his hands immediately and shouted up at him, " what are you trying to do?! "

The cheek of him to giggle, shrug in that psychotic, dirty manner and say, " i dono " whilst trying to squeeze outta my grip. Given his really greasy, DISGUSTING hand, he broke free and turned into the faster flowing opposite direction crowd.

I'm an ugly singaporean. I didn't give chase.

Instead, i asked the girl if she was alright. She cried and shaked her head in the neither-yes-nor-no way. I didn't know what else to say so after a few seconds of awkward silences, she rushed up into a pack of ppl. My guess is she was separated from her friends before she got stuck in b/w the banglahs so she ran back to em.

I bet she'll never show her face at anymore countdowns for a long long time.

Amist the scene, childish teenagers, roughly my age or maybe even older were spraying tons and tons of snow foam things. One guy who i'm sure was way older than me even had a bag full of em. I thought they were banned! Well, Singapore should. At least restrict e no. of cans sold. if they can ban harmless chewing gums, i don't see why they should allow such stuffs. To create the atmosphere? It wasn't helping. They just looked like a bunch of oversized kids.

Anyway, after the countdown, i headed back to meet 52-ers. We went ECP to...catch up with one another. Spent hours there. By the time we reached geylang for supper, it was roughly 4 am.

Dim sum for supper. So much for losing weight ; so much for saving money.

I shall go for a swim then.





I've been talking alot haven't i?
oh well...................................

Merry Christmas all!

Last christmas, i gave you my heart.
But the very next day,
you gave it away.

Happy 2006th birthday, Mr Christ.

Hell, i'm changing to blogger beta soon. muahaha.

First and foremost, Thanks for the shirt, kl. I like it. Saved me some new year money somemore. hahaha. :)

I think the older generations forgot what christmas is about. Year after year, i see everyone giving each other ang baos. This yr, it's worst. My mother and a family friend agreed not to exchange gifts coz it's a waste of money. In the end, they gave our family an unfried packet of cashew nuts. -_-'''

i'm not saying this because i want presents. Afterall, more often than not, my family always gets me things their ideal yvonne should be using. i'm an unfilial, unappreciative person. i know. haha..

it's ok to give my family nothing coz we're the grown-up cousins/nephews/niece/children but i'm talking about the joy the kids have on their faces when they receive wrapped up gifts and start ripping the wrappers apart. ( even more reason why we should never buy wrapping paper from 'Prints'.) Imagine how they'ld feel when they realise that the gifts they got are the things they want/like. Of course, this joy is now killed since everyone is placing a quota on how much our presents for the kids should be.
if i were a rich man..

Unfortunately, i'm not in the mood to do the gift-hunting this yr so alvin had to do it instead.

I guess parents sees christmas as a time to unnecessarily spend more money. Not entirely untrue but look at the bigger picture - although definitely the cause of headaches, gift hunting is fun. Especially when u're doing it with the right people. And it's not good to always give ang baos to kids on EVERY occassion or they'll grow up to be a money-minded, festives-means-nothing-but-money people.

Still, i must give credit to the adults for planning so many family gatherings this yr. I'm sorry i never make it for most of em. I do feel bad. :(

done with talking kok, lets talk abt today.

Today was a great day!
Went to PW and did some painting with hush. My mind was kinda off-focused but it was fun on the whole. After we finished, we went shopping for her family's gift. She's hilarious. Remind me again that she's a grown up alrdy. i always have the notion that she's still the lil girl who just stepped into gvss. hahaha...

ice-skating next! =)

check out Joe Satriani's crowd chant. Very nice.

Vindicated.
I am selfish.
I am wrong.
I am right.
I swear i'm right.
Swear i knew it all along.
And i am flawed.
But i am cleaning up so well.
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.

Oh great, it's christmas eve already..

Went out for supper with kl last night and i greatly embarassed myself:
1) Aimed for geylang but ended up at lau pa sat.
2) Forgot to bring money.

how man am i?

NUS's accountancy school closed down.
Told you NTU school of business and accountancy is better and more prestigious.

i'm not bragging.

And I think NUS accountancy's students are quite poor thing. If i'm not wrong, they gotta change course which means they have to retake everything.

hopefully i have no friends in thr.

Got the car tonight! anybody wants supper? :D

But fighting all the demons will take time..
it will take time.

In just 3 days, i spent over $10 just on transportation ALONE!
basket. Looks like adult life isn't that great afterall. :(

Went to watch Night at the museum with hush today. show's ok. Not the best, but watchable. It would have been better if not for the smelly apu-neh-neh beside us and the couple making out in front of us. haha... wonderful choice of show to make out btw.

hush's a good company. :)

Check out the relatively new band, Rascal Flatts. They have good songs in their album.

i'm zzzy. night all.

What hurts the most,
Was being so close.
And having so much to say.
And watching you walk away,
And never knowing,
What could have been.
And not seeing that loving you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.

In one season of friends,

Joey, Phoebe and Rachel felt tight coz they were not as rich as Monica, Chandler and Ross and they can't afford to do many expensive stuffs like them but had difficulty rejecting it coz they thought it was stupid to kill the spirit over a small cash flow issue.

I feel like joey, phoebe and rachel. :(

Anyway, the holiday's a good show.

P/s: blogger is discriminating against OLD blogger users.

P/s 2: i think there's something behind the fridge in my room.

Hello darkness my old friend.. i've come to talk with you again.

The rain has been eccentric. Behaving exactly like girls - tempremental. haha..
It's affecting all of my activities. My swims, my runs, my cycling... GONE. all i can do now is eat, zzz and eat and zzz even more. i really needed those exercises. for obvious reasons. Even driving seems less fun and more dangerous now thanks to the fallen trees and jams.

I'm a lil lazy to talk about the past couple of days but they're worth putting down.
so here's a couple of things to note:

1) Pulau ubin on friday was fun.
2) Changi jetty has changed so much it isn't that cool anymore. instead of the kampong, rustic loo, it looks like WTC with all the checks and stuff.
3) the last time i took the 'bumper boat' ride was in sec 2's atc.
4) we aimed for chek jawa but jj, whose roots were supposed to be from ubin lead us to the beach beside npcc campsite instead. (oh how we used to play muah chee there. yuck. )
5) ubin's mosquitoes are like commando mosquitoes and they attack in 3s.
6) we didn't manage to reach chek jawa.
7) fang hui met with a really bad accident.
8) photos will be up later.
9) met up with 4e1'03 on saturday.
10) suki sushi's buffet is SO MUCH more worth it than sakae sushi's buffet.
11) Wanted to go indochine - yay! :)
12) found out that suhaily ( class chairman ) was working in rouge - only accepts ladys who are > 21 and guys who are >25 ( beside acid bar @ sommerset ) that night.
13) reserved a chamber for all of us.
14) 9 ppl.
15) my 2nd time in rouge. first time was with dear kl and her mr policeman.
16) opened a bottle of vodka that costed $158.
17) rouge's band is like sooooo good. much better than indochine but still, i like indochine nonetheless.
18) rouge's music, when the band was resting was ALSO good.
19) chin hoong's first time drinking.
20) went to simpang bedok for supper.
21) woke up early for car wash on sunday.
22) car wash was cancelled due to bad weather.
23) pl, estelle and i went to pw to shop instead.
24) estelle bought 2 book, pl bought nothing and i bought a pair of beautiful LEVI's socks. :D
25) hong kong xiao chi has terrible food at unreasonable prices.
26) went home to slack for the rest of the day.
27) Chun how's birthday celebration yesterday.
28) went to visit chechire home - our beneficiary first.
29) some of them are quite friendly and some really makes me sad.
mtt once said.. " there's a difference b/w service learning and community service. In community service, u may leave sad. in service learning, u learn by serving. There's no need to feel sad. Just learn how to give. " let's practice service learning on lovebites.
30) went to visit poor ol' fang hui.
31) went to celebrate chun how's birthday @ brewerks @ clarke quay.
32) the bill totalled to $708!
33) went to his friend's friend's pub.
34) opened my 2nd bottle - chivas.
35) chun how got REALLY DRUNK.
36) i had his puke on my hands.
37) this is the most expensive birthday party i've been to. but i had fun. :)
38) since chun how reads this, i am unable to disclose how much i've spent. haha..
39) estelle and i are trying to rush through full house on youtube.
40) rain very hamsum meh?
41) i bet youtube will be forced to close one day
42) i'm really glad that exams are over and i embrace this holidays. the feeling of not needing to get up to study or stick to the stupid schedule.
43) school is starting. :(
44) nicholas sparks has a new book! - dear john.
45) i can't wait to get my hands on it.
46) it is so much easier to update this way.
47) it's getting cold.
48) i'm going to snuggle up on fh's bed. HAHA.
49) goodnight everyone.

poor jamie went to sispec. he'll be gone for 6 months. I'm gonna miss him especially when we have any other class gatherings. i miss him alrdy. 4e1'03 rocks. =)

Anyway, the past couple of days were really good i suppose. busy = good.

I saw michelle's friendster profile. Seeing how close the jnr canoeists are makes me really happy. i wish the ppl frm my batch are as close as em too..but just thinking back on how they were when i first saw them..seeing how shimin and qin wei were when they were at the trials, how michelle was when she first took T2, how they were there for us when our batch had that major hiccup..i can't help but smile really widely.

jealous, i am. but i'm happy too. they had better stay this way. :)


oh and folks,
if u're free on christmas day, go down to orchard for christmas@orchard for a collaborated celebration b/w FCBC, GVSC - who will be SINGING ( wahahah! ), giving our balloons etc. and many other ppl.


Aza aza fighting!

Oh dear, i just took 1 chinese song each from estelle and stebun. It's a sign. I'm getting cheena! :(

All thanks to stebun's self-compiled, 95% chinese song CD which he repeated FOUR TIMES on our journey to and fro pulau ubin.


我要离去　别再哭泣　不要伤心 请你相信我　要等待　我的爱　陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天　我们牵着手在草原 听鸟儿歌唱的声音　听我说声...　

我爱你

Child, are you happy?
I don't mean to pry.
But do you think of heaven?
Have you wanted to die?

i knew a couple got married at bedok reservoir in a bid to " fulfill PM Lee's dreams of conducting a marriage coupled with 2 dragon boats at the side. "

BUT,

i didn't know that THAT couple was ANGELA YONG. Yanni's ex-CT. haha..


Funnnnnny, funny.

went ubin today. blog more when i have the mood.
goodnight.

Never judge a book by it's cover.
Never EVER think you know someone because people lie.


under some unfair circumstances,
you'll be surprised to see that..

the good guys can become the bad guys too.

i'm glad you're alright.

Thanks shannon, kl and ms tan for coming down. :)


Cycled with kl and ah bee yest to bedok jetty. Staring at the choppy, vast, green sea, i wished i was canoeing. If only i owned a voyager, a racer or a dancer, i'ld go out on most days. I'ld stop myself right in the middle with no one in sight and scream..yell.

yell my hearts out! yell and yell and yell. Yell until i lose my voice. until i scare the hell outta every fish. Until there's nothing more to say. Then i'ld keep singing. Sing until nothing is left in my mind.

Until i reach a clean slate.

then i'll slowly paddle back. Drag my boat upashore. clean it, wax it. Get it all prepared for my next expedition.

I really miss canoeing.
The slicing of water, the fighting with waves, the gliding of boat, soaking up the sun, the exhaustion..everything.

If you're so powerful, pls,

bring me back there.

This time, alone.

Only a day of car wash and cycling and already i'm sprawed, at 2234 hrs on a fine saturday night, on e NEW L-SHAPED SOFA my family got DURING my exams ( note the sarcasm. ), too tired to drag myself up onto my proper bed.

well done.

blog more abt today tml.
goodnight.

CAR WASH FOR CHARITY!

To raise funds for lovebites, Hall X's annual charity event in Feb'07,

We are conducting car wash @ ECP - the car park beside macs.

Dates: sat (9-12-07 ) and next sun ( 17-12-07 )

Time: b/w 9 am - 3pm.

So do YOUR bid for charity today,

let us beautify your car.

=)

There's no place like home..or is there?

Finally home.
Leaving ntu with the intention of going home seems weird yesterday. Afterall, it's been one and a half month. Oh well, this day gotta come. I can't keep avoid coming back, can i?

Went for sakae sushi with kl and shannon yesterday. YUM! finally got my cha soba. =D i've been having so much cravings lately i feel like i'm pregnant. I'm lucky they always get satisfied. It's been a long yet, not so long time since i met kl and shannon. And shannon drove a MERCS thr!

barely a month after he passed his driving, he's alrdy manoeuvring a MERCS all over town..

..and despite having eight months passed, i'm STILL having problem convincing my mum to let me drive the MAZDA ard. -_-'

Anyway, we went to watch deja vu yesterday.
wonderful show! everyone should watch.
And i also realised i have the making of a good director.
wahaha... only kl and shannon understands what i'm saying. =)

pls don't rain..pls don't rain.
i wanna swim.
pls don't rain.
stupid d<-o<-g.

Fool.

A FOOL!

so bloody stupid.

Walked pass jam band room.
Slang, the freshie band was singing 'Only one'.

I was shocked that there are people here who knows the song.
Even more, i was shocked at how horrible their edition was.

so this is it.
A song I sing:

Broken this fragile thing now,
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces.
And I've thrown my words all around,
But I can't, I can't give you a reason.

I feel so broken up (so broken up),
And I give up (I give up).
I just want to tell you so you know.

HERE I GO!
scream my lungs out and try to get to you!
You are my only one!
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do,
You are my only, my only one!

Made my mistakes, let you down.
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long.
Ramed my whole life in the ground,
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone.

And something's breaking up (breaking up).
I feel like giving up (like giving up).
I won't walk out until you know.

HERE I GO!
scream my lungs out and try to get to you!
You are my only one!
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do.
You are my only my only one.

Here I go, so dishonestly,
Leave a note.
for you my only one.
And I know,
you can see right through me.
So let me go and you will find someone.

HERE I GO!
scream my lungs out and try to get to you!
You are my only one!
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you!

You are my only,
my only one!

my only oneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
my only one!
my only oneeeeeee.

you are my only, my only one.

Imagine Me & You US trailer

" you don't know,

you can never be sure,

but you take the plunge anyway.

Sure is for people who don't know love enough. "

Imagine Me And You



Imagine me and you.

A brilliant beyond brilliant show. For those who are mature enough and have a heart open enough to accept certain truth of life.

To follow the heart.
That's what the show emphasizes.
In life, some things do not turn out the way it is supposed to be or how the society deems.

ACCEPT IT.

sometimes,
you cant.fight.fate.

in times like this, or maybe a little less extreme, shut ur eyes, clear urself from the surrounding, from the world and ask yourself..

" what does my heart say? "

Thereafter, trust ur heart. follow it.

if only there ever is someone as strong, sensible and brave as rach and as thoughtful as luce.

anyhow,
open your heart and watch this show with the same respect and not with a jaundiced eye.

I'll be brave too..

Imagine me and you, I do.

I think about you day and night, it's only right.

To think about the girl you love and hold her tight.

So happy together.

If I should call you up, invest a dime.

And you say you belong to me and ease my mind.

Imagine how the world could be, so very fine.

So happy together.

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you,

For all my life.

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue,

For all my life.

Me and you and you and me.

No matter how they toss the dice,

it has to be.

The only one for me is you, and you for me.

So happy together.

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you,

For all my life.

When you're with me,

baby the skies'll be blue.

For all my life.

So happy together.

So happy together.How is the weather?

So happy together.

We're happy together.

So happy together.

Happy together.

So happy together.

So happy together.

(ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)

Finally with sufficient sleep.

sjab camp was good. Everything went ok except for the minor gliches in the attitudes of some ppl and those stupid hooligans we bumped into at holland V. Actually, the things they did were simply hilarious.

Bravo was soooo good this time. =)

here's a couple of pics taken this past week:

Kboxing with the hallers.

doro, being the most natural ; sharon, trying to look like a pro singer ; jas, acting intellectual.

Spring cleaning with fh and estelle. i look like the terrorist force is CS.

Things we do when we're zzzy at 630 in the morning on the first night of camp.

hmm..i really had fun at camp. And a great experience seeing how different people have grown. Couldn't help but wonder, what happened to me?

more pics will be up if alan koh keeps his words and sends me the rest of the collated shots.

The ah bengs at Holland V are so very the childish.
1st time: we stare.
2nd time: we rolled our eyes and said thank you.
3rd time: we burst out in laughter.

Stupid things they do.

ANYWAY,

While waiting for jas at bukit batok mrt today,
A hot chick was asking for donations.
To every man she approached, she striked a conversation and flashed her most beautiful smile.
She even grazed her arm across this bangla.

Cheap.




oh well, i donated anyway.

WAHAHA.

that when i waked i cried to dream again.

How clean is clean?

How dirty is dirty?

How clean is dirty?

How dirty is clean?

Gvsc is ohana.

ohana means family.

And family means nobody gets left behind..
or forgotten.

Tomorrow this time, i'm gonna be a free man!

I can predict that tml's paper's gonna be quite screwed. but i really can't be bothered anymore. My brain's too saturated. Ms seah's right..the good thing about uni is that it practices a modular system. So after the exams, we can go all out and forget everything we've studied. woo hoo! I can only hope now that my project and quiz's grades can help me scrap across to a passing grade for stats.

really man, jc stats is nothing compared to uni's stats.

I should be going to bed now..but not till i tell the world my exciting plan next week:

tml - EXAMS END! lunch with hallers! council retreat.
tuesday - canoeing! ( f.i.n.a.l.l.y. )
wed - break camp. back to hall. WALLA WALLA with 52-ers.
Thurs - hangover day. probably cs, cs and more cs.
fri - steamboat @ marina w 52-ers. sjab trg camp.
Sat - Hiking.
sun - sjab camp.
mon - break camp. back to hall. pub mtg.

i'm going to be FIT again i tell you. Fit, black and really cool. wahaha.

I haven't been going home for a month now. and it seems like i won't be going back for another week.

unfilial brat.
and i haven't even told my mum that i'll be at camp. NVM, ignorance is bliss. Just let her believe that exams are gonna drag to next week.

i don usually list out my activities like that. but.. HOW COOL IS THAT?!

for now...it's back to the books and e bed. :(

Ms Tan's bringing the odac kids to mt kinabalu tml. Again. hahaha..she sounded really sick of it. and i wont blame her. She has been climbing that and ophir like 3-4 times alrdy. i think she can memorise the route alrdy. if only i wasn't having my exams now. I could've gone with her. sigh.. i wish i wish...

My family organised a chalet cum bbq at sentosa tonight. I know my aunt put in alot of effort in coordinating everything..seeing from the thousand and one emails i received frm her. But i can't make it coz of the exams and Alvin can't too. Now i feel so bad. Especially after hearing from mother how disappointed she sounded when she found out we're not going. I guess they're right. Everyone's growing up so fast. No one has time for the family anymore. Sometimes i think my family's hilarious. People my generation always play cool and talk adult-ishly whilst the previous generation folks thinks they're accomodating to us by talking baby talk. Sometimes i wish i can be more filial and pay more respect towards em. But when i'm with em, i always find that they are so... dysfunctional. oh well, i guess it's time i change my mindset.

a'right folks. i'm shutting down.
All the best to everyone taking the final paper tml and to e nus peeps. PUSH! :)

kl, jia you!
don't give up.
it'll be over soon. =)

My best men.

despite the weekly fogging,

NTU BREEDS MOSQUITOES!

itchy witchy, scratchy watchy,

up and down my backy wacky.

Just like a rollercoaster.
These things in my amygdala goes up and down with no prior warning.

So beaten.

I can use no other words to describe.
I wish it'll just leave.

I don't even know what's in here anymore.
So heavy.


What do you believe?
That you shape life or does the environment shape it?

There is only a limit to how much we can control our life.
a mere.... 10%?
optimistically, 15%.
So what happens to the other 85%?

let me ask another question:

does bliss today mean darkness tomorrow?
If it's so,
do you want bliss?

Yvonne goh, you're so full of shit.

a chat with a friend today made me helluva better.
Although cant. 11 toilet was a terrbile setting,
Thanks.
Thanks for your shoulders.
Thanks for understanding without me having the need to open my mouth.
Thanks for responding so promptly.

Friends are wonderful people.
If you make the right ones.

It's frightful how people change.
Yet on the other hand,
it's delightful how people change.

1.5 hrs of cs definitely calmed me down alot.

It's weird to receive good luck msgs frm michelle and wenee seeing that they're the ones taking A levels this year. no more studying together. :( Nevertheless, i'm happy for them all. Their As are OVER! I could still remember how elated i was. Then.

i'm so off-focused. must be the last-paper syndrome. CANNOT CANNOT. PUSH PUSH PUSH! all the way to the end! one more only. you wanna regret ah?!

tomorrow is a new day.
A brand new beginning.
I shall stay focused. I shall have the self-discipline. Everybody, work with me.

There'll come a day where i'll say how much i miss staying in hall. How much I'll miss going through the life i'm having now. Rather than being a loser and lamenting on how i never made full use of it, why don't i live it up now?

I've been saving all the letters,

that i wrote to you.

Each one a line or two.

i'm fine baby,

how are you?

die. addicted to cs.


ONE MORE! ONE MORE!

So be wise,

and keep on,

reading the signs of my body.

12 pm: wake up.
12:45 pm: eat brunch.
2 pm: study.
6++ pm: Stop studying.
7 pm: dinner.
7:45 - 10pm: SLACK.
10pm - 3am: study.
4:30am: zzz.

and the cycle goes on.

HOW SLACK AM I?
tsk tsk. Asking for trouble.


Looking forward to council retreat.
I hope everyone's gonna be there.
It's time to relive ol' sec sch days.

Just like a De'javu.
The same thing happened last yr.
Big A's, council retreat, prom.

only that things were a tad different then.

When you told me that you loved me,
were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me.
And i know that hurts.
Coz i'm looking at your picture,
coz it's all i've got.
Maybe one day you and me have,
one more shot.

Yvonne Goh! you stupid fool!

ask, ask, ask!
so kpo for what?!

haven't you learnt?

IGNORANCE IS BLISS!

one phrase, 3 words.
so hard to remember meh?!

see la,
now how?

ohk hak already la!

good for you lor.
so kpo.
never learn from mistakes.

STUPID GUNDU!

regret now?
regret right?

GOOD FOR YOU!

Walking down the other side of the road.

Only two days into the exams and i'm behaving like it's already the last.

It's 6:30 am now and the 5 of us are gathered in my room waiting for steven to come back with sup-fast ( supper cum breakfast.) This is a real sinful sight. Earlier on, we went to jp's pizza hut to eat somemore. In what way do we look any prepared for exams?

sigh..

2 more papers, 2 more weeks to go. It'll be over soon. It'll be over soooon.

There's a new bus route out for the exams weeks. A and B are taken off and bus D will be running the opposite direction of C. It was my first time travelling that direction yesterday and i realised there were many things on the other side of the road that i didn't notice before.

And it struck me.

I guess that's what we have to do with life too. Sometimes, instead of sterotyping certain things, we should stop, take a break and walk the other direction. It might be surprising to see things we overlooked while getting comfortable with the old, usual one.

Take a break, smell the roses.

Friends plays an important part in one's lives. Some have good, solid friends who shared joys and woes. Some have many friends who happen to cross each other's path at certain point of each's journey. I am lucky. I have both.

We were talking about lotsa kok ( As usual ) earlier upstairs. Unknowingly, the topic of death came into the picture and we spoke quite detailed-ly of funeral procedures, how it was to see a coffin being pushed into the flames, how it was to collect the ashes. Ashes. After struggling with life, that is what we're all going to be reduced to. And, i thought of Jin and dad.

Its been years. Too many yrs.

Reflection mood back on.

I pictured many people being burned after dying. I pictured some people who were important to me.

Someone nice told me recently, " forgive and forget. "

i'm trying and i should.

a'right, the sky's bright, the food's eaten.

It's time to zzz and get fat.

Goodnight everyone.

I am warning you, Javert.

I'm a stronger man by far.

There is power in me yet,

my race is not yet run!

I asked my love,
to take a walk.
To take a walk,
down orchard road.
Bypass mandrin,
to centerpoint.
where we had lunch,
At macdonalds'.

Waiting for exams to come is sooooo agonising.

The first batch of people have gone to take their exams. And they all came back gloomy. I thought uni was supposed to be less stressful and mind-grabbing than jc. I was so wrong.

my turn tml. :(


oh yvonne, stop being a weakling!
CHIONG AH!!!!!

experiencing cognitive dissonace.

The grass is always greener on the other side.

kl was right..

when i was in jc, i used to tell her how much i miss gvss and how jc was stupid - their syllabus were dumb, their sch hours were dumb, their upbringing was dumb. Yet now, i miss that stupid school.

funny.

So another futile day went by with nothing much entering my head. Estelle said that she's scared because she's not scared. I think that made alot of sense. The stress is more on the fact that i've been wasting my hours plain reading with nothing entering that hollow space in my head.

there's this sharp pain extending from head, through my eyes, down my neck to my shoulder. My apologies to those i snapped at today. A whole day of head-pains definitely made my temper bad. :(

Heard that Georg Bush is coming over this thurs, fri and sat and because of it, the As and Os that's gonna fall on those days will be pushed back by an hr. I know michelle ends her paper on friday and i think wen ee also. My condolences. haha...but see it from another light ya, good things are worth the wait. =)

Do i really have such a dubious character? Am i really capable of executing such behaviors? It's scary to think that people can think me as that scary.


yet another random entry.

goodnight all.

Ever so sweet,
You baked it in cakes for me.
were you left behind,
It hurts my teeth...
Bring in the past with the postcards you sent for me...
Every line,
It brings me right back down.

( eat + zzz + ATTEMPTED studying + eat + zzz + even lesser attempted studying + eat + zzz + even even lesser attempted studying ) X infinity = STUPID FATTY BOM BOM!

Read my dream..


I got whacked in the head by someone. I was rushed to the hospital and eventually died of loss of blood. Came outta my body and some angel in white ( i think it was fann wong though ) brought me to a place claiming it's life after death.

We took a stroll and saw my funeral etc. i actually saw my own coffin being pushed into the fire place thing.

Thereafter, we walked into this room. And i saw my entire stats class in white. Apparantly, my whole stats class died as well. which means i still had to attend stats lessons.

-_-'''

WHAT THE HELL?!

I dono what's going on with me. Must be the exam stress or smth. I've been talking weirdly. Oddly, i feel like chandler. Oh god, save me.

When one wants things to work this way, things always have to go the other. So why do we even want? Haven't we learnt? We should stop wanting. Coz wanting is baaaaad.

It'll be interesting to take a day off one day and switch roles with god. I sit above and watch while he struggles around with daily life. Will it be so funny then?

We're all like tiny ants. As a matter of fact, pawns. We're all pawns. Controlled like a game. And when we lose our value, we're called home.

in conclusion?

we're just pawns.

oh you useless human emotions. Please get out of my amygdala and stop bothering me. The same goes for you, hippocampus! just.scram.

In a totally different matter,

Serena dropped by my room today. And we had a looooooong chat from my room to comms hall. Funny how we never did speak in JC yet realise only now that we can actually communicate quite well.

you can come find me anytime you want. And i think what you said, how you analysed it was really sensible and mature. stay strong. =)

Elliott smith rocks. He never fails to put down emotions into words.

It's always been,
wait and see.
A happy day,
and then you pay.
Feel like shit,
the morning after.

Nicely done by yasa. These are only those frm 04s307. =)

"Research suggests that avoidance is the best approach of conflict management where conflict has become socioemotional. At the same time, conflict avoidance should not be a long-term solution because it increases the other party's frustration.

Yielding behaviors may give the other side unrealistically high expectations, thereby motivating them to seek more from you in the future. In the long run, yielding may produce more conflict rather than resolve it. "

I don't need this now.
Not now.
IT'S MY EXAMS FOR PETE'S SAKE!
i've got better things to do.

shame on you.
So very the childish.


just leave me alone wont you?

KnEw all about,
about your reputation.
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation.

A'right...here's a super girl yvonne talking:

I had the best birthday ever this year.
Many thanks to Pei Lin for masterminding the whole thing and lying to me.

Thank you 52-ers for the decoy party, that puny cake (haha), the nice sparklers and 'fireworks' rain, the wonderful wonderful presents, the ADM slides, the BIGGER cake, the friends, being wonderful hosts, the very beautiful tissue card and..too many to name!

Thank you 04s307 girls and guy for making the trip down, for the pleasant surprise, for the dirt, the monkey photos, the beer, the lies, the food, the singing sessions, the presents, the colage ( yasa )...

Thank you Alfred and jasmine for the most unexpected gifts at the most unexpected hr. I'm really surprised. =D

also, the dozens of smses. before, during and after. wahaha. One great thing about birthdays is..i realise alot of ppl still rem me. :D Outta the blue, u'll get msgs from friends u thought u've lost contact with. of course, that'll mean i've been a lousy friend. Coz i nv did wish em. :(

Alright..this is getting far too mushy for me. The bottom line is, I really enjoyed myself this yr. And i was really glad to see both sides together.

i shall let the picture do the talking now:



MANY MANY thanks to everyone for their hardwork. Especially Tan Pei Lin. It was a novel idea. and i love it alot! :)

So this thank you entry was written since....1/11/06. But i didn't had the time to fine tune it..
Exam heat is on. I took a flip in my organiser today and realised that i wont have enough time to finish studying.

Damn. What have i been doing with my time?

I guess i'm not cut out for real studying afterall.
Those wordy text books and useless lect notes casts zzzing spells.

Choosing JC then was the biggest mistake of my life. To hell with it. If any kids are reading this, listen to yvonne jie jie..

jc BAD; VERY BAD.

I probably wont be updating anymore till after the exams. Feels like i'm taking the As together with the other J2s.

Speaking of which... all the best to all you ppl out there! get those As! most of u deserve it. :)
ENJOY ur 8 months thereafter. Better cherish every single day coz if u waste it like me, u'll live in regret. I'm speaking from experience. haha..

business makes me miss econs. -_-''

I don't know what it is,
that makes me feel like this.
I don't know who you are,
but you must be some kind of superstar.