Can god love me this much?

I hope there's no catch to this. Hopeful final preserverance

I feel silenced.

On one hand, thankful that i've cleared all the  pscs. But then i'm scared because i dont feel i've made the mark to qualify going for a validation check.

But no one is listening to me.

What if i don't make it this round.

Am i going to be able to pick myself up?

I feel like i'm standing at the gallows with my hands tied.

Gonna need a miracle for this.