Mother is seriously getting on my nerves.

也许苦，也许甜
不害怕，不后悔

Lonely without you.

Hate the feeling I got the moment I woke up today.

Fear.lost.angst.anger.confusion.hope.

allcombinedintoone.

Today I had a couple of chances.
Today I didn't take those chance.
Today I feel really bad.

I don wanna live my life in regret.

Yesterday was a tiring day.

But in an awesome way. =))

Missing it even before Friday happens.

Willing this two weeks to pass by slowly.

yup, she thinks I'm stupid.

Sometimes I think you think I'm stupid.

I'm not talking of a hurried night.
A frantic tumble and a shy goodbye.
Creeping home before it gets to light.
That's not the reason that I caught your eye.

Life as we know it.

Some people makes decision in life by choosing the easiest way out. Some purposely goes against the flow for a kick in their mundane life.

I have the whole world who loves me going against my 2 biggest decisions at this point of my life.

How do I choose?

What is your choice?

Tired but just can't sleep.

Sent Sean Nee off to her new life in Dubai yesterday.

I hated it.

Didn't realize I would actually feel so strongly about it until I saw Eng and her. Both me amigos gone just like that.

The three of us have come a long way. From a shy dinner at Orchard Central, we progressed to having secret rendezvous(es) at the Infant Care, to frequent dinners, to caring smses, to many laughters and 10 times more tears.

Seeing Eng and Sean Nee last night brought about a whole lot of memories at CM. How we sneaked lame remarks or gossips to each other because we don't want people to know that we were hanging out, how we looked for each other when we were pissed and how we always hid at Eng's room in the afternoon to chit chat and to bitch about my family.

In retrospect, the school seems so much emptier now. Even though the number of people our age went up ( as compared to Ellen's time ), the feeling is somewhat different. I am thankful for most of them. Some especially more than others - like Maisarah, Sharon, Irene etc but it is still not the same. I can't say if it's for the better or for the worst but what I know for sure is that I miss the days with Eng and Sean Nee very much.

Staying at CM is like watching an old film.. where the background scene remains still but people starts disappearing.

Sometimes, it gets a little too lonely for my liking.

I'm afraid because when you're climbing or are at the top of the roller coaster ride, the only way you can go is down. And the higher you go, the faster you fall.

imagine me and you